𝐵𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑙𝑦 𝐷𝑒𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 // 𝑗𝑗𝑘, 𝑦/𝑛, 𝑘𝑡ℎ

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Taehyung POV

I opened it carefully, not wanting to ruin it. I pulled out the letter and held the soft paper in my hands. It was folded and had creases in it, but there was something strange on it.

A smiley face that looked drawn, and a little down the paper was a question.
'Are you happy?'
It read.

I didn't know who that was meant for. Me I assumed. But if you were really asking me if I was, then no y/n I'm not. I haven't been since the moment you took your last breath.

Turning the paper around, my hand began to shake. It was her handwriting. She had written in such small writing, so she could fit as much as possible into one letter. I saw the tear drops on the piece of paper that mixed with the ink and smudged a little.
Her tears.

I looked up at the ceiling and took an audibly loud breath. No matter how much I prepared myself, it was going to be hard to read it. So it was best to just go through with it.

No more time to waste.

Dear good boy,

My sweet sweet Taehyung. I am so sorry. I really am for leaving you all alone in this terrible world. This decision wasn't made in impulse, I had been thinking about it for a really long time. I guess I just can't take it anymore. I'm so tired. I need it all to stop. I can't breathe anymore, and I can't wake up anymore. I pray everyday, that when I go to sleep, I don't have to wake up. Because this is all just so depressing. I'm sad. I did this because I'm sad and I don't want to be anymore. I see no light at the end of the tunnel, no greener grass, just darkness. So I think, there's no point in living anymore.

But really I don't think I have to explain to you why I left. I think you know.

I'm writing this because I know how heart broken you must be. And I don't want you to. I don't want to be the reason you wake up miserable everyday. I need you to know that I love you.

This is my love letter to you.

From the first moment I saw you, this might sound a bit cliche, but you were different. Strange was all I thought you were. You barely smiled, just around your friends. I never heard you talk, yet you were the popular boy. It made no sense to me. But I was never one to get into anothers business.

That is until Jungkook confessed to me. You always acted odd. You tried to intimidate me, but always failed at that. Instead, you were the only one who helped me. You smiled at me. That stupid, boxy smile, I'll never forget.

I hope you still stretch that large smile from time to time. I'd be really upset if you didn't.

I remember how you always gave me butterflies. I've never admitted it to you, but the way I felt around you was unmatched. I tried my best not to like you, but you were just too charming. Too sweet. Your charming personality was far extraordinary to my hesitation to like you.

Things from then on were good. I remember how I rode you on the bike you gave me. I'll never forget the way people stared at us. That was the only time I didn't mind people looking at me.
When I was with you.