Den Noona✅ (Reverse Harem OT7)

Forty-One

Joon and I showered together, he took his time washing my entire body slowly and carefully. I offered to wash him like I always do but he denied me, once we were cleaned and dried off I brushed my teeth then he put lotion my body and his and laid next to me on the bed staring.

"What?"

"So you're into girls too?" he smiled showing off his dimples. I blushed trying to hide inside my shirt

"Not really. Umm Lisa and Dani are the only women I've ever had sex with and it was only a few times. With Lisa it happened for the first time in college, typical experimenting but she realized she really liked girls then but didn't come out until years later. Once her and Dani started dating they asked me for a threesome twice. It's not that I like women but I was comfortable enough with Lisa to explore what it was like to be intimate with one. I really wanted to satisfy my curiosity and they allowed me to do that without pressure or judgement"

"That makes sense. I have to admit I was really turned on seeing her kiss you and eat you out, you looked so into it"

"The girl has a skilled tongue" I giggled "I love dick way too much to be a lesbian or even bisexual but it was nice. I don't ever have to do it again though" he just listens to me quietly "I'm sorry"

He wrinkled his forehead "What for?"

"For letting my first time be with her instead of you" a few tears escaped my eyes his thumb erased them before they traveled far

"Baby I would've waited for as long as you wanted, what you went through was traumatic and I would be a really shitty person if I pressured you into sex. Of course I missed it but our relationship is deeper than physical contact. I love you for so many other reasons."

"Namjoon, am I a whore? Is-is that why he raped me because I was somehow asking for it?" I could see his heart shatter

"Ami, baby," he pulled me into his chest and started crying too. I buried my face into his chest and sobbed heavy and hard "Baby you are not a whore. You didn't ask for that, that son of bitch is a disgusting pervert who thinks raping women is okay if they turn him down. That does NOT speak for the kind of person you are. He's the one that's messed up not you"

"But-but-"

"No buts, the sex we have is consensual, that doesn't make you a whore or a bad person, I don't care if its one, seven, or twenty of us you gave us consent. We don't force you or pressure you into anything and you don't do that to us either. Baby you are many things, good things- you're absolutely beautiful, intelligent, sweet, caring, charming, adventurous, fun, generous-I could keep going but I'm hoping you get my point. You didn't deserve that and I hate that it happened to you but Ami please don't let what he did define who you are"

"Do you still love me?"

"I don't know how not to not love you" he chuckled as I revealed my tear stained face "I will tell you and show you every day how much I love you. Babydoll it's going to take more than a month to start healing and moving on and I promise I'll be there every step of the way. You have my love and my support, and you know it's true for the rest of the guys too. We will always love you"

"I'm sorry if I'm being needy or clingy" he cups my cheek and squashed it gaining a smile from me

"Stop apologizing, be patient with yourself" this man, damn I love him.

"Okay" I slipped my hand inside his shorts and began stroking him, he started to grow immediately with my touch but stopped me

"Not right now babydoll, come on let's help with dinner" he kissed my nose and got off the bed pulling me up with him