Addicted to You

10

"Spence, can we talk?"

"Yeah of course"

Atti took a deep breath as she felt the anxiety grow in the pit of her stomach.

"You ok?", he looked at her genuinely concerned. 

"Yeah, I just--I have a hard time talking about my feelings"

"Ok, well how can I make it easier?"

"I don't know, just--listen I guess", he nodded, "Remember yesterday when we were on the phone and before you hung up you said 'Bye. Love you', what did you mean by that?"

"I'm not understanding"

"Did you mean you love me because we're best friends or you love me as in something more?'

"Can I be honest?"

"Mhm"

"I--I m-meant it as s-something more. And I didn't mean to say it, it was an accident and I know it probably freaked you out a little because I know how you are about things like that"

"Ok, well I'm feeling a lot of things and I wanna explain it to you but it doesn't make any sense and I don't think you'll understand."

"You do your best to explain and I'll do my best to understand"

She took her hands and rubbed them on her temple, "This is gonna sound so dumb and cliche but, I don't understand what it's like to be cared about by someone, let alone loved. I mean, I spent my whole life feeling alone, like no one understood me. And", she shook her head slightly, "I don't know, I met you and those feelings went away kind of--or I forgot about them"

Atti paused to take another deep breath, "Spencer, you make me feel crazy like I've lost my fucking mind, but like--in the best way possible. And even though I'm used to being around you, every time you smile at me or giggle at something I said, I still get butterflies in my stomach and I can't get rid of the feeling. I try really hard to suppress the feelings I have towards you because I don't understand them. I've never been in love with anyone before. I don't know what that's like. And to be honest I'm terrified--"

"Why?"

"I'm terrified that if I let myself admit that I have feelings for you that you'll abandon me just like everyone else."

His face dropped, he stood up and pulled her into a tight hug. Reid kissed the top of her head and then looked at her, "It's perfectly fine if you need time, I understand. And we don't have to rush through anything. And I hope you know that I'm never just gonna walk away from you." He noticed that her eyes were glossy but he knew she never cried in front of anyone. He leaned down and kissed her passionately. She pulled away, "Please fuck me", she whispered. 

He raised his eyebrows in shock, "The lady gets what she wants"

Spencer sat on the bed while Atticus dug through a box, "What the hell are you doing?'

"Remember when I first moved in and you were helping me unpack and I told you not to open that box", she pulled out a light pink strand of rope, "That was the box", she laughed. 

He laughed a little before switching his demeanor, "Strip and get on the bed"

She raised her eyebrows with a smirk before doing as she was told. He got on top of her, his knee pressed up against her core as he kissed her hungrily. Attici instinctually rolled her hips, in attempt to gain some sort of friction as she moaned quietly into the kiss. Spencer pinned her hips down on the bed and moved his leg away from her as kissed and nipped at her neck, leaving a trail of bruises. He sat up and she removed her hands from his curls. He grabbed the rope and tied her wrists together, "Is that too tight?"

Atti shook her head, "Words, please"

"No", she responded. 

"Good girl", he kissed down the valley of her breasts and down her stomach. He spread her legs a little farther and kissed her inner thighs slowly, he bit lightly and she moaned. He licked a stripe up her core, collecting the evidence of her pleasure. He continued licking circles around her clit painfully slow for a few minutes, "Please stop teasing", she whined. Att wanted to reach to tangle her hands back in his hair but she was stopped by her bound together wrists. Spencer connected his lips to her bundle of nerves and traced circles faster, a desperate moan escaped her lips. Her breathing quickened but just as she was about to finish, he returned to sucking on her inner thighs.

"I asked you to stop teasing, I even said please", she complained.

"You're so impatient, but I'm not sure I know exactly what you want"

"I want you to make me cum, please", she begged desperately. 

 He continued, this time dipping his tongue in and out of her core slowly as she filled the air with breathless moans. Her thighs started to tremble around his head, "Fuck", she panted as her back arched off the mattress. Spencer untied her hands as he kissed her. He flipped her over onto her  knees and re-tied her wrists behind her back. Atticus heard shuffling as he undressed himself and lined up behind her. He thrust into her, placing one hand on her hip and the other around her neck as she gasped. He changed his angle to go deeper and picked up the pace, he lifted one hand and slammed it back down, smacking her ass. 

"Oh, fuck", Att moaned a little louder, clenching around him and Spencer let out a low groan. Within a matter of minutes her legs began to shake once again as she allowed a string of obscenties to leave her mouth desperately. 

"Go ahead, and cum for me baby", he muttered as he pulled her hair back, sensing she was close. She moaned his name as she finished and that was enough to push the boy wonder over the edge. 

"Fuck, Atti", he groaned as his thrusts became sloppy and he spilled into her. Spencer untied her wrists and rubbed the gently seeing the slight burn they had left, "I'm sorry, are you ok?", he whispered sweelty kissing her wrists. 

"Yes, I'm fine", she headed to the bathroom to clean herself up and threw on some pajamas. Attici climbed into her bed and carressed Reid's face gently, "Goodnight Spence", she kissed him softly. 

"Goodnight, pretty girl", he muttered and kissed her again. He swallowed her up in his arms and she nuzzled her face into his chest.