Tell me you love me.

TWENTY-SIX

Demi's pov:
Today I had a day off, so I wanted to spend some time with Ally and go outside, but I think it's best if we stay here after what happend this morning. I'm really worried about her and her not talking to me doesn't make it easier. While I was making breakfast, I got a call from Lauren.

L: "Hey babe, are you alright, how is Allison?"
D: I'm good, Ally was crying this morning and I'm really worried Lauren."
L: "Yeah it's probably not easy for her today."
D: "What?"
L: "Her mother died 3 years ago today."
D: "Omg no, I feel so bad now. How do you know?"
L: "It stood in her file."
D: "Fuck, I's so dumb, how could I forget this."
L: "Demi, it's okay. Just make sure you take care of her."
We said bye and hung up.

I went back to my bedroom with a smoothie and an apple. Ally was still having a hard time eating, but she knows I'm not giving up easy, so most times she just eats it immediately. She wasn't sleeping anymore. She was just starring at the little window. "Ally, I made breakfast."
She didn't respond at first. "Ally, come on you need to eat." "I don't want to." "Why not." I frowned. "I don't deserve it." "Of course you do, Ally. Why would you say that." A tear rolled over her cheek. I put the plate on the ground and sit next to her. "Come here." I said and got closer to give her a hug. I know she don't like to touch other people, but she needs a hug right now. I hugged her and surprisingly she put her head on my chest. Her breath become slower, so I had figured she was probably sleeping.

After an hour I decided to leave her and go to the mini studio of the bus to write some lyrics. I didn't want to leave Ally alone, but I had deadlines and Scooter wasn't going to be happy if it wasn't done. "Hey Dems, where is Allison?" "She's sleeping." "How's that? It's 3pm." "Yeah, well today is really hard for her. Her mother died 3 years ago." "Omg, that's so sad." "Yeah I know, but don't say anything about it please, she doesn't know I know and she hates it when someone pity's her."

"Finally done." I sigh. "What are you doing now?" "I think I'm just going to stay in bed all day with Ally." "Okay, well I'll order something for you guys. Any preferences?" "I'm not very hungry Kelsey, but thanks." "Demi, you are the one who's telling Allison not to skip meals and now you're not eating yourself. What's wrong?" "Nothing's wrong I just hate what Ally' is feeling right now and I feel so bad for not knowing why she was sad today." "Don't punish yourself for that, literally everyone could forget it." "Okay. Just choose something yourself then, I don't mind." I said. With that Kelsey left and I went back to the bedroom.

Tomorrow we should arrive in New York. I have two shows and an interview with Jimmy, so it's a lot. On the other hand I'm glad I'm finally getting out of this bus and stay in an actual room. We'll stay a week in New York which means I have 3 days off, so I hope I can spend some time with Ally.

I had already eaten, but I didn't want to wake Ally for it, so I was just on my macbook waiting for her to wake up, so she can finally eat. She eventually didn't wake up and slept the whole night. It was kinda triggering for me to see her not eat a whole day, because I used to do that, but I know what's good for me and that's not going to affect my recovery.