The way life goes//Mattia Polibio

~9~

'Cuz you make my earth quake'

We all drove home and I started making food even tho Mattia didn't want me to.

Mattia: well, it's impossible to stop you from doing anything so I give up

Camila: haha sorry- OH WE HAVE TO TEXT THE GROUPCHAT

Mattia: oh yeahhhh well finish making the food so you don't burn it and we'll text them

Camila: okay, do you like bacon and avocado?

Mattia: yeah

Camila: okay because ima put lettuce, broccoli, cucumbers, avocado, chicken, and bacon in the salad

Mattia: okay sounds good

Camila: k-

I was interrupted by my phone buzzing.

Nobody ever calls me

I walk over to it and check it and my eyes widen at whos calling. I hear Mattia walk towards me

Mattia: you okay

Camila: huh?

Mattia: are you okay?

Camila: oh yeah it's just uh- it's just a spam caller

Mattia: ...okay

It wasn't a spam caller

I look back at my phone and push answer and walk into the bathroom.

Camila: h-hello?

??: where are you?

Camila: at a friends

??: I want you home tonight Camila I mean it

Camila: o-okay dad

I hang up and zone out as the memories came flooding back.

Oh come on Camila stop worrying it's bullshit

My right hand starts shaking, as it usually does when I start having a panic attack and I slide my back down the bathroom counter burying my face in my hands.

I cant do this

I never thought he'd call back

Why?

Why does he have to call back when I was starting to feel better?

My breathing started getting heavier and I was trying to hold in my tears. I almost never cry because I hate it and I feel weak when I cry.

What am I gonna do?

Do I sneak out?

I cant tell Mattia, he's gonna worry

I'll just say that uhhh I'll tell him that- shit-

My thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door

Mattia: Camila you okay in there?

Camila: yEah

MY GODDAMN VOICE JUST HAD TO CRACK