It Gets Dark

8:12pm

people always say what you went through is what made you
but what if i was made by the time i was 6
after hearing my mom and dad fight,
hearing the cops on the phone.
i realized that no matter how much you love someone, it will eventually turn into nothing.

i never had the childhood i was supposed to, growing up around the old men who were calling me more then beautiful by the time i was 10.
hearing my step father call me a whore because i had shorts on in the summer.
having to help my mom through her panic attacks while i went through mine alone.
nothings changed.
and im starting to accept it never will