... (I think you already know what to do)
You've given it away again
Oh hell, he couldn't find it in him to shut this voice up anymore, several cuts in attempt to shut the voice up proved useless. It still told him everyday everything he didn't need to know and would remind him how much of a mistake he was.
Chan looked at the boy in the eyes.
He just blinked "I'm sorry"
Chan went in for a hug
"Don't.."
Chan looked at the boy in confusion
"I don't deserve your sympathy" Jisung said bluntly.
"Jisung, please..."
(Play after "no I'm sorry" )
"No, I'm sorry! I just want the group to go back to normal, I want the voices to shut up. I just really want the group to be back to normal, please... Don't care, you have more important things to do that aren't caring for me. I'm fine, I'm really fine.... I think... But please, don't let me drag you down!"
"Jisung talk to me" Chan said, his eyes staring right into the you gets chocolate ones.
"You're really just going to make me say it huh..?"
"Please, what's bothering you?"
"What do you mean, what's bothering me? Nothing, or everything, it's been like this for ages Chan"
"How... How long.." Chan asked, a sickly feeling in his stomach as the boy continued
"Two years, that voice isn't new I was just so much better at hiding it then you didn't realise. I guess I'm weak, huh? I can't bear the sound of it ringing in my head, it won't leave"
"Jisung, you're not weak, why didn't you tell me sooner, I would ALWAYS stay by your side, no matter what, please... Don't think you have nobody"
It's fake
.
.
.
Right?
Hello?
Why
Is
The
Voice
Quiet?
Jisung was stuck on his choice on words as he stared at the older, tears still streaking his cheeks.
"...."
"Go back to sleep, Chan, It's 4am"
"No, Ji, you're more important than my sleep"
The
Voice...
It
Was
Deathly
Silent
Without
It.
But
He
Didn't
Want
It
Back.
He just didn't want to be lonely.
He wanted to have someone that wasn't burdened by him.
It seemed that only "person" was the voice.
"Chan, I have really, really bad depression,, Why do you think I oversleep all the time, I don't see the point in getting up at all!" Jisung finally admitted "and i- I- I don't want you to care for me! Please don't treat me any different, I don't want to feel different, I want it to stay the same."
