Just A Secret (Dreamnotfound)

11

He's coming over today, after I told him. I'm nervous, very nervous. I get a knock on my door. I walk there and see that George is standing there with a little smile on his face.

"I brought your favorite food." He says holding up a bag of skittles. He hands them to me and goes over to Patches and starts to pet her. Something's off.

"Thank you," I say a bit confused. I walk upstairs and George trails behind me.
"So how have you been." He says smiling.
"I've been good, you seem to be in a good mood."
"I am,"
"That's good." I've never seen him like this except when he's streaming.
"Christmas is coming up very soon, we can go to someone's house or something."
"We can probably come to my parents house, they haven't seen you or Sapnap in a while. It'll be nice."
"Definitely."

His mood is throwing me off and it didn't sit right with me at all.

"George,"
"Yes?" He turns around.
"Why are you doing this?"
"Doing what?"
"This. This whole thing, you're acting like the thing we talked about never had happen."
"Maybe it's better that we pretend it happen."
"I told you something that was really personal, but you're acting like I never told you. Why are you saying that it's better that it never happened? Does it not matter to you?"
"Well do you want me to ask you who it is? I didn't what to pressure you, I never did." He says getting frustrated.
"So you bribe me instead?" I yell.
"How did I bribe you?"
"Giving me my favorite candy, being in such good mood. I notice this stuff, George. I really do. You're probably thinking I'm so gullible."
"I never tried to bribe you, I just-"
"You just what George? Tried to be a kiss ass to me? Try to make it come out so you don't have to try as hard?"

"I don't want to argue with you, Clay. I really hate it." Clay.
"I hate it too."
"Why am I even here? To argue with you?"
"You brought this upon yourself."
"How, you're the one who accused me of bribing you just for you to confess something."
"Because that's exactly what you did."
"Why am I even here?"
"If you don't want to be here, then leave."

Face turned from angry to sad. I felt so gutted.

"Fine, I'll go." He turns away and walks towards the door. He opened it, just like my dream.
"Wait, George."
"What Dream?"
"I-I'm sorry." He stared so blankly at me. No reaction, which hurt the most.
"Little late for that." He leaves my room and I hear the front door open and slammed closed. 

I start to cry and sit next to my bed. Why did I say that? I push my hair back with my hands and continue to cry. I start to clench my hand into a fist and slam my fist against my mattress and then released the pressure from my fist and cry even harder. I'm pretty sure I lost one of the most important people in my life.

I'm sorry George, I really am.

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We didn't talk for days, I was scared to text him. I didn't want to upset him even more, and the only communication that we had was between us was Sapnap.

"Dream I'm going to me straight up with you, you need to call him."
"Can't I just text him to apologize?"
"It's not as meaningful."
"Please, it's less stressful."
"You literally cried for 3 days because of that conversation, and you guys made plans that you'll meet at your parent's house on Christmas, so please call him."
"Fine, I will."

I call him and it rings a few times and the more times it rings, the hope of him answering went down. It stopped ringing.

"What?"
"Can I go over to your house really quick?"
"Why? You don't want me at your house."
"Please?"
"Fine." He hangs up. I put on my shoes and walk to his house. I knock on his door, I was so nervous. He opens the door without a smile.

"So what do you want?"
"I want to apologize."

He moves to the side and I walk in; I turn around and he leans against the door.

"I want to apologize for the way I acted, I didn't mean it and I never meant any harm. I don't know why I acted like that I never meant to hurt you or try to be a bad friend." He walks over to me and hugs me I wrap my arms around his neck and hug him back. "I'm so sorry. I really am."
"Its okay, I'm sorry too," He sigh. "I never meant to make you feel less than a person."

"I love you so much." I say closing my eyes and holding him closer.
"I love you too."
"Forever and always?"
"Forever and always."

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