Dear us,

The lesson of the year

When did the world changed that much? Why do l see everything differently?
Was it always like that ?
Or it was just me who didn't see the reality of it !!
I'm not saying it's bad, I'm not calling it names.
I'm just so surprised and wondering how was I so blinded.
Everything seems  so different even the colors when did they change it?
I know life was meant for good and bad , but I can't help just thinking about everything I passed through this year but the only difference is that I am looking at it from different perspective like if it's not me anymore.
It's like i am another person, one I never was.

Once again it doesn't mean that it is a bad thing it's just like I have grown up.
I may can't see the whole picture yet i may can't feel the whole feeling yet
but blaming is not my thing so yeah ! I'm not gonna blame the world neither nor the years. Especially this year
though it was a tough one , the decision have been made with a welcoming heart i'll accept my faith ,be patient and trust my god.

However, The days went on leaving a very hard lessons to us to everyone and to myself.
For me it was regretting.
Yes regretting, I know people always say you shouldn't regret anything but they never say how.
I never was that kind of person who regret their doings but I found out that regretting can eat us a life. It can turn our lives upside down, make us live in sorrow and in pain.
Also I learned to think through everything I do, to tell the people who means most to me about my feelings towards them, to make amends , to never underestimate people's pain.
Let's be honest I can't judge them I haven't been in there shoes, nether did I live their life.

Also, I learned to believe in god doing no matter what.
Allah always has his mysterious way that we shall not question as he always do the best for us and he never ever put us in a position we can't handle.

I also learned to write i know i am not a professional and my writing may be full of mistakes and  lots of people mayn't like it,
but it helped me to get through everything to get all this emotions out, take with it and understand it so that I can understand  myself in the process.

Finally as I said god always do what's right so it doesn't matter how we feel it doesn't matter how much our heart is burdened with sadness, Allah will guide us to the way and he will help us to get through this all.
So here We are ready for the new year, ready for the new lessons and ready to accept our faith.