Alone... // ON HOLD

184 days.
Yes, I've been counting.
I love him, yes
I still do.

But he doesn't.
Never has.
He said after leading me on,

"Never in 200 years, would I love somebody like you."

His words play in my head like a broken record, tearing my heart up slowly, but surely.

It won't stop...
Maybe I don't want it to stop.
Who knows?

The one question I have been asking myself for that long :

How. Will. I. Live.