Alone... // ON HOLD

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Not fair. After all that's happened, Kat, out of all people, would get such a bad guardian. We all love her mom, but her dad is a completely different story. He gets drunk, does drugs, and I'm pretty sure he's homeless. I sigh, and think of how Kat turned out to be this amazing. I. Love. Her. Everything about her.

"Ugh, Lilly?" Someone is at my door.

Brandon.

Shoot! I forgot we were going to study today! I was so caught up in the Kat business, I didn't realize that everyone else's lives were still going on. Ugh, I am so selfish.

"Sorry Brandon," I yell, "hold on... Never mind, Let yourself in!" I grab a t-shirt, and pull on some skinny jeans.
Then, I rush downstairs to meet the one I fell for.

I don't know why, but whenever I'm around him, I feel something gnawing at my insides. Sometimes I want to throw up, and other times I want to run up and kiss him. I've only kissed one other boy, and that would be Tucker. It was awkward, because we dated for a while, but I stopped it. You cannot date someone you love like family. Trust me.

"Lilly, um, before you go all study crazy, I want to do something..." after the last word, he flushes. I adore his small smile, and I have a hard time trying not to trace them with my hands. Before I know it, he takes a step forwards, and puts his forehead against mine.

I suck in a breath.

He smiles at my uncomfortable-ness, and leans in to kiss me. I put my hands on his chest, and smile at his happiness. I love this boy, but I know he will ruin me. The dreams I had start to blur my vision, and I pull away.

He raises a eyebrow, and waits for an explanation. I look at him for too long, and he pulls me into his arms, and rests his head on top of mine.

Perk of my short height...

"Ok," I pull away slightly, just enough for me too look him in the eye. "I have these dreams..." Again, he raised his eyebrow at me. "You, you and Jacklin... you know... kissing." My voice sounds like it got carried away in the wind, and my lips are only left.

Brandon, being the caring, amazing person he is, he takes his hand in mine, and says, "You are the one I want. I will fight for you, and I won't stop until you are happy. No matter what you want, me or not." I smile at his kindness, and sigh with envy. He has always been this selfless.

"I love you Lilly."

*****

When I woke up, it took me a second to figure out where I was.

Kat's house.

Wait, Kat's house? What am I doing here? The last thing I remember is falling asleep in Brandon's arms. We didn't do much studying, but I had a talking buddy. Kat would sometimes listen, but most of the time, she tells me to suck it up, and go fight the female dog. Example :

Garett.

I caught him cheating on me, multiple times. Also, I just found out that he has been doing drugs. He punched me, while he was doing drugs. I found that out because of Brandon. He has been watching him for me. I shuttered at the memory of him punching me. Its like he was breaking my heart over again, but this time, literally.

Back on topic : Kat's house. I scream Kat's name, to see if she is in the house, but nobody answers. I sigh and look at my phone. I realize Brandon texted me, along with a random number. I read Brandon's text first ;

Hey, sorry for leaving you. Your mom said she needed to go out, so I carried you to Kat's house. She wasn't there, but her 'dad' was. I hope he is gone when you wake. I miss you, and I love you. Xoxo.
-B

My heart flutters at the thought of Brandon and I realize that this whole time, I didn't want to admit it, but I was attracted to him sense the beginning. He makes me happy, and I am grateful for that. I read the next message, and stop breathing.

Watch out. I'm coming for you. He won't be there. You are mine.

I shutter, and try to convince myself that it is fake, and someone is just playing a prank on me, but in the back of my head, I know that this has something to do with Brandon, or Garett. Hah- It's not like they know where I live, so no harm there.

Ding Dong.

I freaked myself out, and picked up a knife in the kitchen, and went to open the door. In my head, I remember I once watched a horror movie with the guys, and the girl went to the place the monster was at. I screamed. Just remembering that made me shiver. I shook those thoughts from me, and opened the door.

Monster.

Wait- no... It's Brandon! I smile at him, but he doesn't return the favor. His gaze is stuck at the knife in my hand, and I sigh. I carefully put it down, and jump into his arms. He raises another eyebrow at me, and I tell him everything.

When I finish I add something.

"I wanted to tell you something," I start. "I didn't say that I loved you, and I'm sorry for that. I wasn't ready. But now I am. I. Love. You. Brandon. You are the one. I love you sooo much!" My words make him smile, and I melt.

I love you, Brandon.