Alone... // ON HOLD

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"Honey, c'mon... It won't be that bad." My mother doesn't understand that my heart has been ripped out and tossed around in a monsters hands. My dad left us... well actually, my mom told my dad to leave. Not the other way around.

Garett.

His name is Garrett. The man who stabbed my back, may I add, multiple times. Multiple times I caught him cheating on me.

One day, right after he told me he loved me, my heart fluttered. 9 days after, he told me,

"Never in 200 years, would I love somebody like you."

He left after that. He left me standing there, with my jaw on the ground, and my heart shattered. I tried so hard to do everything in my power so that he wouldn't leave me. I guess I'm not good enough.

My face pales, remembering what happened.

"Mom, I can't go. I won't go.... What if I see him?" My voice is crackly, after all, it's the longest sentence I've said in 184 days. My voice doesn't sound like mine, but I can feel my lips moving ever so slightly.

My mother looks at me, with hesitation written all over her face, but she still speaks.

"Lilly, he made it clear he doesn't want to see you...."

Really mom -really.
I just look at her, and she sighs and leaves my room.

I pick up my phone, and dial Kat's number. She, and my other best friend, Jacklin, have been here for me no matter what. She picks up on the second ring.

"Hey Lil! How are you! I mean, wait- do you want me to come over? ...Be there in 3." And with that she hangs up. Oh, Kat, she didn't even give me time to say hello, and I'll see you at school. Oh well, I could use some company. Kat and Jacklin are the only ones I've seen since the breakup.

Garett is perfect. He got jealous a lot, but he is-was perfect. I feel the lump in my throat rising, but I move on to some better times. He used to bring me pink roses, which grew right in his backyard, just for me. When he found out that I loved them, he planted them in a way, that if you looked at them just right it said 'Lillian', and it was beautiful. Just like him.

"Lilly! Kat's at the door!" Her words bring me out of my thoughts.

Let's get today over with.