multi fandom imagines

fred weasley.

TW!!
mentions of less popular types of self harm !!
mentions of cheating.
slight mentions of alcohol and possible drug use.

i don't see you, you're not in every window i look through.
i see him all the time, but i don't see him, ever.

i don't miss you, you're not in every single thing i do.
i don't think of him every room i step into, and i don't think of missing him, ever.

i don't think we're meant to be, and you are not the missing piece.
of course, i never thought i was ever ACTUALLY meant to be with him, no- i never thought he was the missing piece i needed, ever.

i won't hear it, whenever anybody says your name.
i always hear about how- "weasley did this, weasley did that" i don't listen.

i won't feel it, even when i'm bursting into flames.
i see them walking around sometimes, looking so happy with his arm around her, i refuse to feel it even if it's the only feeling in my body.

i don't regret the day i left. 
of course i don't regret leaving,,

i don't believe that i was blessed.
no, i also don't think i was blessed by leaving,,

i'm probably lying to myself again.
but i know i wouldn't have been blessed staying, like he asked me to, either.

im alone in my head, looking for love in a strangers bed.
i've been alone for about a year and a half now, in my head, left with my thoughts, and i can't help but wonder how i ended up waking up cuddled up to his twin.

but i don't think i'll find it,,
i didn't feel the same, i felt good..

'cus only you, could fill this empty space.
but i didn't feel great. i didn't feel loved, i didn't feel him.

i want to tell all my friends, but i don't think they would understand.
i want to tell them just how much i miss him, but they'll only tell me that it was his fault and there's nothing to miss about him.

it's something i've decided.
i know they will, i've convinced myself there's absolutely no point.

'cus only you could fill this empty space.
theyd tell me to move on, but he's the only thing i want. i don't want anything else, and he's the only thing that would meet my liking.

i've been drinking, i've been doing things i shouldn't do.
i was snapped out of my thoughts by a bottle of firewhisky shattering on the floor, due to me zoning out and losing my grip on it. i stare at the glass and liquid covering the floor in shame..knowing he wouldn't like seeing me like this.

overthinking, i don't know who i am without you.
i overthink, 24/7, i can't help it. i was finding myself with his help- and then it all stopped. i lost myself, i don't know who i am anymore.

i'm a liar, and a cheat.
i lied, i said i was okay. i wasn't, i cheated my way out of heartbreak, thinking it wouldn't hurt.

i let my ego swallow me— and that's why i might never see you again.
i got too ahead of myself, let myself believe we were in love and my ego swallowed me whole, telling me there was a chance for us. and now, i'll never see you the same because of it, i'll never see you again- it's your fault.

i'm alone in my head, looking for love in a strangers bed.
i felt alone again, i needed someone. so, i woke up cuddled to the closest thing to him, his twin, again.

but i don't think i'll find it, 'cus only you could fill this empty space.
this time, it felt better. i didn't feel loved but i felt needed. much more needed, and i liked every second of it. but i didn't love it, because it wasn't him.

i wanna tell all my friends, but i don't think they would understand.
most of my friends know, about g and i. and i wanna say how it's not like him, but they'll tell me i have better than him, and i should be over it by now.

it's something i've decided, 'cus only you, could fill this empty space.
only him.

space x2
"i just need space"

this empty space.
the space, turned into emptiness.

space x2
that's what i told him, "i only need space"

this.
sucks.

'cus only you could fill, this empty space.
i've now realized that i wanted him, from the start, i had him, and now he's gone.

i couldn't make you love me x12
i couldn't make him love me, i couldn't do anything to help his feelings for me grow. i knew that, as soon as i walked in and angelina was on top of fred, giving him all the love he would never let me give him.

•y/n's pov•
as soon as i walked in, i heard him letting out a low groan- but he cut himself off as he heard my feet shuffling across the floor as i stumbled a bit in shock.

he pushed her off, frowning widely at me. "y/n i promise- darling i promise it's not what it looks like" he whispered, coming towards me slowly.

"no, no it's okay. uhm, i just need space" i said smiling, backing away from him and into the door way.

"y/n, love- i swear it's not.." i smiled sadly at him and nodded. "i understand, fred. i just need space" i walked out, shutting the door behind me quietly.

i heard small voices in the room, whispering it each other on the other side of the door. angelina came out seconds later, looking like she threw on her clothes and she had her head hung, walking slowly, dragging her feet.

i smiled at myself in the mirror, trying to lie to myself by clamping a hand over my mouth to silence my sobs, so i could tell myself i was okay.

it's been a year and a half, and me and george have been hooking up for the past six months. he makes me happy and he makes me feel good, and i love it.

but sometimes i'm set down beside george in the common room, and see fred and angelina, and freddie casts me a guilty look, which i return by burying my face in george's neck, hiding myself from him by turning my whole body the opposite way and cuddling into his twin brother.

and that's how it is and will be, every single time.

A/N!
hi! it's 4 am, i listened to this song and wanted to do an imagine based on it. sorry if it's a bit sad, i'm kind of in a sad imagine mood- and i've seen multiple tiktoks on fred cheating on y/n with angelina, so i wanted to do one too- but in word form. thanks for reading this far- if you have. i love you guys so much, thank you for 98k! i couldn't thank you guys enough, or ever tell you how much i love you. also, sorry if this didn't make much sense, i tried my best to make it work.