How to Kill, Kil (KilluaxReader)

The Roof

This is it. I need to do it now. I really don't want to. He's actually fun. I didn't expect that, I like him. I really can't do this. I need to though. Oh god.

"Now let's eat." Killua said as he dropped the cake on on of the tables. There was no forks so you two ate with your hands. There was a knife in the cake, a very sharp knife.

"Dude!" You said

"What?" Killua looked at you confused.

"You're eating the whole thing save some for me."

"You don't need any your fat enough." Killua said shoving his face full of chocolate cake.

Well your going to get fat the way your eating." You said as rudely as you could.

"Fine by me, as long as I'm not as fat as you." He shrugged then kept eatin.

"Oh please I'm not even fat." You announced your well rolling your eyes and taking a piece of cake.

You are actually skinny and very nimble, not the ideal body for an assassin but you make it work.

I have to do it now. I can not come back down with him.
It was so fast and unexpected that Killua couldn't react, you hit the back of his neck and knocked him out.

What now, this is the perfect opportunity. Come on do it.

Do it

You need to do this

You grabbed the knife the cake was in. You lifted it up to his neck.

I can't

Flashback
"Y/N, you have shown no skill as an assassin, you lack skill in-fact. You need to prove yourself. You are not worthy for this family. If you do not kill Killua Zoldyck we will hire someone to kill you." Your dad said calmly to threaten you into completing the job.

Tears filled your eyes.

"How could you do that to your own daughter." You yelled and ran up stairs.

End of flashback

I just don't want to kill him, what's wrong with me. I've killed people before.

This is my last chance to kill him.
I'll never get another one, this was all luck.
He won't trust me after this.
A tear fell from your face you were stuck.
He'll wake up any moment now. It literally is now or never.

"What the hell are you doing?!" Killua yelled, You jumped up as fast as I could and dropped the knife.
Killua jumped up to. "Are you trying to kill me?! What the hell"
He was dumbfounded and confused, this is not the reaction any trained assassin would give.

You did that much right, you surprised him.

"Yeah I was, sorry." You didn't know how to explain yourself or act so you just took the letter out and gave it to him hoping it would explain a little.

I feel so bad, I really do

"I'm really sorry, my parents forced me." You said. "But that's not enough... For you to ever forgive me. I'm so sorry. I betrayed you. Im so so sorry" You begged.

He read the note around 4 times.

"It's okay." He said calmly.

"Wait what? Huh? No its not." You wanted to do more to say your sorry.

How could it ever be okay. I tried to kill him.
I thought about it.
I was going to do it.

"I'm not dead so no damage done, it's a shame though I actually had fun tonight." He put his hands in his pockets and shrugged. He started walking slowly to the elevator.

"Whoa whoa whoa, it is not okay I tried to kill you, I tricked you, I betrayed you! It's not okay. And besides didn't you see in the letter it says they sent 4 other assassins to kill you, you're not safe."

"I'm fine, anyways we always get jobs that you have to do but don't want to. I understand, and the only reason you got close to killing me was because I was distracted, which is my fault I should never let my guard down. Now that I know people are after me it won't ever be down." He said calmly.

You looked up and saw a body appear and jump out. "Look out," you quickly pushed Killua out from the attackers way.

The attacker landed on the ground, he was a boy around your age wearing a suit. Your punched him with all your strength and he fell to the ground like a rag doll.

"Your guards always up huh?" I said, Killua was absolutely shocked, his mouth was wide open probably wondering how he let another person almost kill him.

"Okay starting now." He scratched his head then looked up at you, his mouth twitch up. "Thanks."

He looked at your arm and walked closer to you.
"Your arm, it got cut." He grabbed your arm and inspected it. The attackers knife grazed your arm and made you bleed. "Doesn't look to bad, the cuts not to deep, but it's bleeding a lot, you need some bandages or something to stop the blood."
"It's fine." You said calmly, you've had much worse wounds then this.
"No really let's go get something to help it." Killua said.

"Let's worry about this guy. I feel like I've seen him before, he must've been been at the gala the way he's dressed." The attacker was a boy around your age, he had light brown hair and looked pretty strong.

"Yeah so that's 2/5 that have attacked me so far, you and him. You both are are my age more or less, so the person trying to kill me must be hiring people our age. Atleast that's what I'm guessing. That's weird he must think I'm weak or something."

"Hey I could've killed you if I wanted!!! I just didn't want to, simple." You said in your usually bossy tone.

"Yeah sure. That was luck like I said before I let my guard down. You're to weak to kill me." Killua said.

"I- I am not weak." You said frusterated.

"Whatever, so what should we do with this guy. Tie him up? No point questioning him, he probably got the same letter as you. Should we kill him?" He said.

"Let's just leave him here, and go downstairs, but what are you going to do? Someone's trying to kill you and it's not safe, and who knows whose after you."

"Why do you care so much. God damn, I'll be fine."
Killua said, his cheeks were tinted with pink and he then turned around.

"Killua, my Dad... He's going to kill me i-if I don't kill you... so I can't go home today if you're still alive. And I know we're not that good of friends, but I was wondering if you could help me."

"Huh! Your dad wants to kill you, what a fath-" Killua was cut off.
"I want you to help me run away." You said as you interrupted him. "I know you did it once and your parents couldn't find you."

Killua was shocked, "But why, your dads not actually going to kill you, I bet it was an empty threat." He said shocked but still calmly.

"I don't know he- I think he's serious this time, he's always really serious. This one time my brother didn't follow up on a job and he sent an assassin to torture him... My brother ended up killing the assassin, but it took him a while to escape him and I don't think I'm strong enough to take on a real assassin."

"I guess I can help, but only if I can come along. The person trying to kill me, he must be dangerous if he knows he can kill all the assassins he sent. So it's best for me to hide for some time."

"Oh my god really!!! You're great Killua, thank you thank you thank you!!!" You hugged Killua so hard he stumbled.
"Alright calm down calm down." Killua said akwardly, clearly he wasn't used to girls hugging him, or even touching him. You were smiling so much, you let go of him the asked.
"Okay so how are we going to do this."