I Never Thought I'd End Up Here

I Hope I Never Wake Up

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEEEEP!

I groaned and covered my head with my pillow. The noise seemed to be growing louder. I sat up and opened my eyes. The alarm clock on my dresser was lighting up. I reached over and smashed it against the wall and the noise stopped.

It all came back to me. Derek, my mother's death, not having any blood relatives left. I closed my eyes and sighed. The feeling of numbness had taken over my body once again, like when I saw my mother drop to the floor, in her own blood. I stood up and got some clothes out. I walked to the bathroom and started the shower.

Still half asleep, I took my clothes off and went in the warm water. It instantly relaxed me and I closed my eyes. I waited for the warm water to heat up even more and I put a quarter sized dollop of green apple shampoo in my hand. I lathered it in my hair, same with conditioner. Next, I got my pink soap that smells like peaches and rubbed it all over my body. I took my shaver and shaved my legs and armpits. I was done in less then 15 minutes and I got out. 

I wrapped the fluffy white towel around me and looked at what I picked out to wear for today. I had a grey long sleeved shirt that would hang over my shoulder, white leggings, a dark grey tank top, and sparkly silver boots. I dried my self off and put the outfit on.

I found some silver bangles and slid them on my wrist. Next, I picked out silver dangly earrings and a sparkly hair clip. I curled my hair and put silver and black eyeliner on, black mascara, and dark blue eye shadow.

I left the bathroom and opened the door to the hallway. I looked both ways and started walking, trying to find the kitchen. I heard talking and decided to listen.

"No! I cant. She means too much to me." I reconized the voice of Derek.

"You have to, this cant go on anymore." A voice I didnt reconized said.

"She's been behaving!"

"And how would you know? You havent seen her because she escaped you. You cant let that happen again. This must be done!"

"But- cant you just give me more time?"

There was a long pause and someone sighed.

"You need to do it by the end of the day today. We just need her in line when your parents come. When are they coming, again?"

"In a week."

"Okay, you have by the end of the day to do this. If not by then, Im going to have to take the throne from you and give it to your brother."

"What?! Thats not fair!"

"Dont argue with me. I will see you tomorrow. Until then, good luck."

"Bye Tony."

I heard someone walking and I quickly ran from there. I didnt want anyone to see me.

 Were they talking about me? I shook the question out of my head and kept looking for the kitchen. I found it at the end of the hall. I walked in and there were guys drinking beers, but from the way they acted, I could still tell that they were sober.

"Hey babe, whats up?" One asked me while sliding his arm around my waist. I turned and twisted his arm away from me.

"Dont touch me." I spat. I let go of his arm and made my way to the fridge, shooing the guys away in the process.

"Oh, princess, dont try to fight me." the same guy said. "I always win." He whispered in my ear. I turned and punched him in the face. He held onto his nose. I grabbed his beer in the other hand want walked off with it, drinking it on the way back to my room.

I was too busy looking back at the boys, that I didnt see Derek right in front of me. I bumped into him and he took the beer out of my hand.

"And just what do you think you're doing?" He spat looking directly in my eyes. Someone must have pissed him off..oh yeah, Tony.

"Sorry." I mumbled and went to walk past him. He grabbed my arm roughly and turned me to face him.

"If you want to act like a child, I'll treat you like one. Go apologize to Alex over there." He said , pointing to the guy that I punched in the nose. I ducked my head and went up to Alex. I looked him in the eye.

"Im sorry Alex, for punching you in the nose and twisting your arm..and stealing your beer." I said. He nodded and I turned back around and walked past Derek, but he caught my arm again and spun me around.

"Come here." He growled. I nodded and he pulled me down the hall with him. I was done resisting. I was done complaining to him. I was done with him.

He pulled me into the dungeon and threw me in. I landed on the floor. He slammed the door and looked me in the eyes. He punched my cheek and hit me in the gut. I winced.

"What did I do?" I asked quietly. 

"What did you do?! You ran away from me! Thats what you did! You almost made me lose my throne, idiot!" He yelled in my face. I flinched away. I think I was actually becoming weak since I hadn't fought in a few days.

"Im sorry." I said.

"No! You're not! If you were, it wouldnt have happened." He yelled and grabbed my throat. I struggled but stopped once I thought back to my mother. I blocked out all the pain. Derek threw me on the wall, still choking me. I saw black dots and I couldnt breathe at all.

He threw me on the ground and I coughed for more air. When I finally got some in my lungs, I looked up. Derek hade a whip in his hand and was pulling it back. I shielded my face and I curled up in a ball. I felt it whip my legs a few times before going up to my stomach. He stopped after minutes that seemed like hours. I looked up and saw him with a knife. 

I tried crawling away from him but he caught my leg. He went on my lap and I couldnt fling him off. He circled the knife around my ceekbone, not saying a word. He grabbed my hand and cut a gaping line through the center. I gasped and pulled back.

"Stop!" I yelled. I punched him in the face. I was frozen in shock. I didnt mean to do that, I already had him really mad.

"You're gonna pay for that." He grumbled and choked me again. I couldnt breath and I was desprately needing air. I felt something stab me in the heart. I looked down and Derek was holding the knife there. I felt my vision go blurry and black dots appeared everywhere.

"Sweet dreams." Derek said sweetly. I grimaced and fell into a state on unconsiousness. One thing is for sure.

I hope I never wake up.