The Real You || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 7

Sungchan:

It was 7:05am and I was 10 minutes away from the school. I left the dorm early today because I wanted to catch up to Miyoung today and see how she is. When I saw her crying, I could tell that it was something extremely personal and it's probably been bothering her for a long time. So, I wanted to check on her and see how she's feeling today. I don't have many friends who are girls, but I know that you should comfort a girl when she's crying instead of making her feel bad. I barely know anything about Miyoung, but I wanted to make sure she was okay.

Whenever my friends talk about her, they're always like "wow Miyoung is so beautiful", "I'm gonna confess to her one day", or "I like Miyoung so much, she's so pretty." Which always leads me to asking them if they know her personality, what she wants to be when she grows up, or if they've had a single conversation with her before. They say no to all of my questions, which always concerned me. Now I know how it affects Miyoung, and I feel bad for her. I know it's not my place to say anything, but I hate seeing a girl cry and I wanted to make sure that she was doing okay.

Since it was still really early, so I sat down outside on one of the tables. I took out my phone and headphones and listened to some music while I watched the sun slowly start to rise. I wanted to go inside and buy something to eat, but I wanted to see when Miyoung would come by. Maybe she doesn't even go this way because there's multiple ways to come to school and I have no idea where she lives. My friends probably know every little detail about her, but I want to find out everything from her, not from other people. That's another reason why I feel bad for Miyoung, everyone knows her business and she doesn't even tell anybody. They probably dug deep into her past without knowing anything.

A couple more minutes pass and my friends walk by and spot me immediately. They smile and wave and ask me if I wanted to come with them, I told them that I'll catch up with them in a second and they left. I looked at my watch and it was 7:30, the time I would get to school. I sighed and gave up on trying to catch Miyoung and decided that I was just going to go to school. I caught up to my friends and they were talking about her once again.

"Hey Sungchan. We were talking about Miyoung's Instagram. She deleted it like two nights ago and we're just wondering why." Byunghoon says and my eyes widen. They nod. She deleted her Instagram?

"I heard she deletes it then makes a new one again. Maybe she'll come back." Jaeho mentions, they all nod and I just keep walking. I tell them that I'll meet them in the classroom later as I walk ahead of them since they were walking really slow.

Once I enter the classroom, I get greeted by some of my classmates, but my eyes immediately go to Miyoung. She's sitting at her desk with her head down and her headphones in her ears. I smile and speed walk to my seat, pulling the chair out slowly since I don't want to wake her up. It was 7:40 and she's probably been here for a long time. I want to wake her up to check on her, but at the same time, I don't want to be rude. Twenty minutes pass and the bells as our teacher comes in. I look to my left and Miyoung is already up and awake, I tried to get her attention but she didn't look at me once. When class was over, she packed her bag and I tried to talk to her.

"Miyoung." I say, she gets up and leaves. The girls behind me laugh and I turn around.

"She's like stone." One of the girls say, the other one laughs.

"She's adorable. Did you need to talk to her? I'm Kyungmi by the way and this is Minji." Kyungmi asks and introduces.

"Yeah, but I'll just try another time." I turn back around. My friends come to my desk and sit around me.

"How's it like sitting next to Miyoung? How does she smell? What does her handwriting look like? Does her makeup look cakey? I don't like a girl who wears too much makeup." Chanyoung continuously asks, I roll my eyes and take out my lyrics notebook.

My heart seems to be empty, I want to make you stay

"Sungchan." He shakes me and I close my book and get up, walking out of the classroom.

— time skip

Luckily I didn't have a dance, rap, or vocal lesson until later today so I decided to stay around and look for Miyoung. Usually I have my lessons right after school but I don't have to be there until around 4:30-5pm. We went through the whole day without saying anything to each other and I feel terrible that I'm the only one who knows how she feels. I tried to look in the gym, courtyard, classrooms, and then I made my way to the library. I would study or write my lyrics here by myself when I don't want my friends near me. Don't get me wrong, they're great to be around, but they're also loud and only talk about girls, especially Miyoung. I enter the library and greet the librarian. The library is pretty empty today so I try to find a table that's near the window.

"Miyoung?" I whisper to myself as I see her sitting at a desk near the window. She looks focused, so I won't bother her right now. I decide to go somewhere else just in case she spots me.

I walk into a nearby café and surprisingly see my friends sitting all together. They spot me immediately and motion me to join them, I join them since there's nowhere else to sit other than with them. I sit next to Byunghoon and as expected, they were talking about Miyoung.

"She always comes to school at like 7am. She's always early and I try to catch her but I can't wake up for that." He states, I look at him.

"Yeah and she always disappears after school. Like she's nowhere to be found. Either she's a fast walker or she's actually turning into dust or something." Chanyoung jokes and I look at him, he stops laughing.

That's I connected the dots. Miyoung arrives to school early, which is why she's always sleeping before class. I don't know what she does during lunch since I'm either on the field playing soccer or in the music room practicing my raps. But after school she either goes to the library or the river.

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