The Real You || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 22

Sungchan:

After Miyoung left yesterday, I couldn't stop thinking about her. When we stopped talking, I couldn't help but blame myself for it all. I had such a busy schedule with recording and practicing that I had no time to talk to her. My only wish was that she was taking care of herself well wherever she was. I was relieved when she told me that she's doing fine at her college since I couldn't be there to be protect her if she needed help. Also, I was really disappointed when she didn't congratulate me on my debut, but I was glad that she remembered when I texted her first. These days, I can't get her off of my mind. I know that I need to focus more on my career, but I couldn't stop thinking of Miyoung.

I had my promotions today and I knew that I needed to stop thinking about Miyoung. But somehow, even on stage, I couldn't stop. She's always been on my mind since the day I found her at the lake in high school. I don't know if it's because I was worried about her or something else. The only logical reason is that I was worried. But there's no explanation as to why I was worried about her. Miyoung and I weren't friends at all when I found her at the lake, she wasn't friends with anybody and her and I barely knew each other. The only thing I knew about her was that she was popular among the school for being pretty. And I remembered that when I saw her cry, I knew that something was wrong and I wanted to be there for her even if we don't know each other. When she started opening up to me, that's when I realized how much of a joy she is. Every time I'm around her, she lights up my whole day. I don't know why, it's just something about her.

My group and I entered our waiting room and I changed first because I wanted to see if Miyoung was awake. While I was getting my makeup done, I took out my phone and was about to text Miyoung but I remembered that she's a student now and she's not awake at 4am. I didn't want to interrupt her sleep, so I decided to not to bother her and probably try again later before or after my performance. Usually whenever we get our makeup done, that's when we sleep, so I closed my eyes and tried to get some extra sleep since I stayed up most of the night thinking of Miyoung. And even when I closed my eyes, I couldn't stop thinking of her.

— time skip

We were done with our schedules at around 7pm and I knew that I was too late since she just started working. During my whole stage, I couldn't stop thinking about her. I couldn't stop thinking about the kind and supportive words she told me when I was having trouble with my lyrics, the snacks and gifts she gave me to keep me awake when she knew I was tired from practice, everything we promised each other, and how much I missed being around her. My high school days were unforgettable because of Miyoung. During high school, I knew that I would forget about my memories since there were none, but after I met and got to know Miyoung senior year, I only remembered her. I knew I had to tell her, but I couldn't right now.

Miyoung
Can we meet up?

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Miyoung:

When I left the SM building yesterday, the only thing I could think of was Sungchan. He was never on my mind this much except for when we were in high school still. I knew it was a problem when I started acting more awkward around him. I just couldn't help it... my heart would beat endlessly whenever we were near each other. Even now, like yesterday, when we were talking, it felt just like high school. I remember my high school days because of Sungchan. The good high school days, when we had each other still.

I woke up at 9am since I don't have a morning class and my only class of the day is at 12:30pm. I decided to get an early start to the day and get some work done for the class I have since I didn't finish it all last night. After I left the SM building, I had five hours before my shift and I didn't even go home since I looked presentable already. I just stayed in Seoul and went to various cafés and such to get my mind off of Sungchan just for my work shift. But it didn't work because he was all I could think about and going to cafés and stuff made me miss him even though I just saw him. When I got home from meeting him, I quickly did my night routine and fell asleep as fast as I could so that I could meet up with him tomorrow. Luckily, I had morning classes so my last class would be at 11am and I'm pretty sure Sungchan's schedule finishes at around 7pm. I also don't have work today so this works out fine.

I made myself a small and light breakfast while I did my homework. However, rather than focusing on my homework, I looked up Sungchan's song "90's Love." I played the song and watch the music video and ended up loving it. When his part came up I knew that he was a star. He was already so famous and he just debuted, I couldn't help but be proud. I looked more into his group and ended up watching an episode of their reality show. I couldn't distract myself anymore, so I put it away and worked on my homework. I finished my homework at 10:30am, so I decided to take a quick shower and get ready for class. I wanted to see Sungchan today but I didn't know what to wear that I could wear to school, so I made the plan to come home before I meet him. My brother is promoting at the same time as Sungchan so I texted him and asked when their schedules end today.

Mingyeom
We end at 7pm.

Miyoung
Okay great thank you

Mingyeom
Sungchan is here and he noticed me, he asked me if you were working today and I told him I think so

Miyoung
WHY DID YOU DO THAT

Mingyeom
I DIDN'T KNOW

Miyoung
Whatever, talk to you later

I wanted to talk to Sungchan today because I needed to tell him something. I had this feeling in high school but I kept denying it because I didn't know him or his intentions well. But I just realized it after we met yesterday, and I need to tell him today. I put together a nice outfit for school and an even nicer outfit for when I (hopefully) meet with Sungchan later. Time was ticking and I still had no idea how to tell Sungchan or what his reaction would be if I just said it. We were friends for over a year and even when we weren't talking I still considered him my friend because I didn't have anyone else. I met so many people here at college but nobody understands me or gets me like Sungchan does.

It took me a while to realize and admit that Sungchan is an important part of my life. He was the only one in all of my high school years who became friends with me through my true self and not who I am outside. He was the first person other than my family to comfort me and tell me that he was there for me. He always protected me and was always free to comfort me any time I needed him to. I don't know if I would have survived my senior year if it wasn't for Sungchan. He made me realize my inner beauty and made me love myself, and he was my first ever friend in a while. I knew that Sungchan was an amazing friend from the start. I bet nobody would have stayed with me if they found me crying at the river. It's just cause he's so compassionate and caring that he stayed by my side and listened to me.

I finished getting ready and left my apartment to go to a nearby café to hang out before my class. It was 11:30am and my class was in an hour. Since I finished my homework, I just went on my phone and looked up ways to tell Sungchan.

— time skip

It was 7pm and I texted Sungchan to meet me at the school river. The school was still open for self-study and other activities so I knew that the river would be fine. I was wearing a blouse, jean skirt, leather jacket, and knee high boots. I'm sure Sungchan isn't used to me dressing like this and neither am I but I have no idea what his ideal fashion on a girl is. I was looking around and waiting for Sungchan anxiously. I didn't know what do, I just wanted to tell him. Suddenly, Sungchan holds an envelope in front of me and I turn around smiling at him.

"Hey, Miyoung." He smiles and pats my head.

"Hey. What's this?" I ask, taking the envelope.

"It's something I wrote for you." He says and I blush. Is he confessing to me? Shouldn't I do it first?

"Before I open it... can I tell you something?" I ask, he nods.

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