The Real You || Jung Sungchan

Chapter 19

Miyoung:

[Warning! I go a little in depth into Miyoung's panic attack. It's only one paragraph so please skip at the long line if you need!]

— time skip

I haven't been to school in a week. Not only did I catch a cold, I was feeling anxious and extremely blue. For some reason, I didn't want to accept the fact that Sungchan was ignoring me. After I tried to talk to him and he walked away, he began to ignore me the whole week. I waited for him at the cherry blossom tree behind the school, the river, the library, literally everywhere we went together. I asked my brother if Sungchan was asking weird at their practices and he told me that Sungchan requested to be in a different class from him from now on. My heart and head couldn't accept the fact that he was cutting me off. This made me remember everything that happened with Seoryeong.

— flashback

"Why haven't you been talking to me lately? Did I do something wrong? I'm worried about you. Please talk to me Seoryeong..." I asked, almost breaking down into tears. I was hurt, my first best friend cut me off without saying anything and started hanging out with the popular girls. Losing a friend — my best friend for that matter — was my biggest fear. She was by my side for such a long time and for her to all of a sudden leave hurt me. After I asked this, Seoryeong stayed silent. I stepped towards her and took her hands, moving her sleeve to reveal that she wasn't wearing our friendship bracelets anymore.

"And you're not wearing your bracelet either... What did I do? Why are you like this all of a sudden?" I ask, this time my tears immediately fall. Seoryeong just stares at me blankly then looks down once I start to cry even more. She didn't look like she was breathing, she was just staying still and looking at the floor. I was concerned so I bent down to her level and saw that she was closing her eyes. She looked back up and so did I.

"Miyoung." She started off. I nodded and she grabbed her backpack and grabbed a bag out of it. She handed me the bag and I didn't open it since I was confused. It wasn't my birthday or an anniversary of ours or anything, so I didn't know why she got me a present.

"It's every stupid friendship thing that we own. Take it and give it to someone else. I don't like you anymore." She says, closing her backpack and walking away. I threw the bag on the ground and chased after her crying. I tried everything, I tried to ask her if we could talk it out, hug it out, or even talk to each other once in a while. She ignored everything I said and kept walking away from me.

That's how my first friendship ended.

— end of flashback

Will Sungchan do the same thing to me? I mean we don't have any friendship rings or bracelet or things like that, but our bond was definitely special. Did I trust him too quickly? Is this all my fault?

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My heart started to pound and I felt like throwing up. My whole world started spinning and I was feeling dizzy. I tried to get out of bed to get my parents but I just fell on the floor. A huge wave of fear and sadness overcame me and I couldn't breathe. I tried to call out to my parents but I wasn't loud enough. Before I knew it, everything turned pitch black and I had fainted on the floor. The last thing I heard was my brother immediately running into my room and yelling for my parents to help.

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I woke up and I was in the hospital. I was in different clothes than I was before and I had a bunch of needles and stuff in my arms. I checked my wrist and I had a hospital bracelet on as well as another needle in my hand. My family was sleeping around me and my brother was holding my hand. I could tell that he was worried about me and I smiled, patting his head gently, trying not to wake him. I looked around and everything was unfamiliar. I haven't been to a hospital in a while because my whole family is healthy and there's really no reason for me to be here. My head started to pound so I tried to fall asleep to take my mind off of everything. When I had my eyes closed, I couldn't stop thinking about Sungchan.

— the next morning

Sungchan:

It was 6:30am and I just woke up. Miyoung hasn't been coming to school and I was extremely worried about her, but I knew that I couldn't do anything or else I'd risk my whole career. I also haven't talked to any of my friends since then too. So I've been skipping a lot of my meals to relieve stress by playing soccer on the field or just running around the school by myself. Even though I still sat next to Miyoung, I couldn't ask her how she was. That day where she tried to talk to me and kept calling my name was the worst day of my life. I wanted to break my character and tell her that I was sorry and have her tell me everything she wanted to but I couldn't. My heart started to hurt thinking of everything that Miyoung could be doing right now. So, I decided that I'd arrive to school extra early and make sure that I'm there early enough for my friends not to be there.

I left the house at around 7:00 and I already knew that I was too late. I caught my breath for a moment and took the bus to school so that I can relax for a bit and sit down. I plugged in my headphones and listened to the playlist that Miyoung shared with me that has all of her favorite songs. Most of the songs were Red Velvet, but if Miyoung picked them out herself then I'd be more than happy to listen to them for her. Plus, they're my seniors and I listen to their music almost everyday at practice. Then "One of These Nights" started playing as I looked out the window.

I would be lying if I said that I don't miss talking to Miyoung everyday. These days, I've been feeling more and more lonely. As much as I wanted to ask Mingyeom how she's doing, I requested to be in a different class than him so he obviously knows that I don't want to talk to him either. But that was all a lie. I never wanted to talk to someone so bad in my life. I just wanted to know how Miyoung was doing, but I couldn't risk losing my career. I trained for such a long time and this is my chance to show my talent to the whole world. If I'm rumored to be a bully or worse, I could ruin my own reputation before it started and my group's reputation. I didn't want to be that idol who's problematic before debut, so I did everything to avoid it.

Once I got to school, there were flowers and gifts all over Miyoung's desk. I wanted to push them all off or throw them out the window but I pretended like I didn't see them. Minji and Kyungmi looked like they were going to cry so I asked them what was wrong without even making eye contact with them.

"Miyoung is in the hospital." Minji says and I immediately turn around.

"What?" I ask, almost yelling.

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Ahh!! Double POV!
This was my first time writing something with so many time skips :,,) I hope you enjoyed regardless!