Happier

Umbara

Ahsoka's POV

I wake up the next morning and I feel really sore. I have a small headache but I am guessing that is from what Krell did to me last night. I sit up on my bed and I feel like everything on my body is sore. I decide to just sit on my bed till Krell comes to get me. 

While sitting there I notice all of the bruises that are visible on my skin.I roll my leggings up and notice a pretty good bruise on my leg. It spreads from my ankle to my knee. Oh boy, I think to myself. I roll my leggings back down and as soon as I do there is a knock at my door. I reluctantly stand up and go and open the door, and there, as expected, stands Krell. " We have arrived at our destination. Where a cloak today. You are to not show any one your bruises and you can not tell any one anything. Otherwise this will happen more often." he says. I nod and grab a cloak that I always have with me. I put it on then follow Krell. 

We load onto a gunship and I see that we are at Umbara. Once we arrive at the surface a base has already been set up. Once we get inside there are a few clones already there but there are barely any. I just follow Krell around for most of the day as he looks at information and where the separatist are. I get set to my quarters and this time I actually head straight there. My legs ache from the bruises and I can't wait to sit down. 

Over the next few weeks, let's just say I haven't been getting good night sleep. I absolutely hate how Krell gets most of his men killed. I don't care if we finish the mission clones are dying. I usually ended up saving as many clones as I can and pulling them back while I finish the mission. I can't stand watching the clones die. I end up getting punished like every night from Krell because of what I do but at least I can save some of the clones. 

I find out one day that Anakin and the 501st are coming to help, this just makes me extremely nervous. I go to bed thinking that night about how I haven't talked to the clones since I had gotten a new master. 

I wake up the next morning and I just sit on my bed, not wanting to get up. Krell slams my door open ( A new thing he does instead of knocking) and drags me out of the room. He gives me a talk about how I am not to talk when he is talking to General Skywalker. I just nod my head and follow him to where the gunships have landed and the 501st soldiers are coming out. General Skywalker and Rex walk out of one of them and start to head over to us. I put my hood up and keep my head down. Then I notice something. There was a human girl walking with them. It looked like they where all laughing together and where really happy. That is when I realize, Anakin got a new Padawan. 

This just breaks my heart. He didn't want me, what he said was true. He wanted another, better Padawan. I keep my head even lower and don't look up when I hear Krell and General Skywalker talking. I over hear that General Skywalker will not be staying but the 501st will. This won't be good for them. I wish there was someway I could tell the 501st to go back so they won't have to deal with Krell and get killed. Once General Skywalker and his Padawan leave I let myself look up. 

The 501st are mainly gathered in one spot. Krell and Rex start to walk to the command center so I follow them. I can tell Rex is really starting to get mad that Krell is only calling him and his men by their numbers. I really want to say something but I can't. I have a feeling that Rex keeps giving me glances and I try to ignore them. I can tell he wants to talk to me but he can't. After a little while though Krell leaves to take a transmission, leaving Rex and I alone. " It's good to see you commander, you had me and the boys worrying when we where told you where getting moved to serve with someone else" he says. I nod my head. " It's good to see you guys again, but I have to worn you, if you do anything Krell won't like, it isn't going to be pretty" I say. I looks confused and wants to ask me something but before he can Krell comes back. 

He tells us that tomorrow at dawn is when we will start our first attack on the separatists. Rex is allowed to head back to his men and I am allowed to go back to my quarters. When I get there I let out a shaky breath and allow the things that have happened today sink in. Anakin has a new Padawan. He looked so happy with her. I look out a window that I have in my quarters and I see some of the 501st men sitting there talking about something. I sit down and I use the force to listen in on their conversation. " We are so lucky to have gotten commander Nellie. She has been doing so much better than commander Tano ever did. She follows orders and no one ever gets killed. Anakin made a good choice picking her as his new Padawan." I hear a clone say. " yeah, she doesn't make any mistakes" another says agreeing. I listen for a little longer of the clones talking about Anakin's new Padawan. 

Once I come out of meditation I let a tear go down my cheek. I can't believe it. The clones had always forgiven me and said that we all made mistakes. I didn't know some of them hated the things I did. I thought I always had a good connection with the clones. I shakily stand up and sit down on my bed. I lay down and just stare at the ceiling. It felt like everything was just falling apart around me. I remember barely even two months ago I though that I could never get a better family, and now I don't know who actually cares about me.