blueberry
3:07 AM
blueberry
do u ever just lay in bed thinking about how different your life would be if you had never met them, as in that one person you care about with all your freaking heart and soul and mind like oh my god i could be a gang member if it weren't for them, doing illegal shit and shooting puppies (that physically hurt me to write i am in agony i'm so sorry puppies) but i met them so now i never got to live that life and i'm so glad bc i don't wanna be a gang member i just wanna lay in bed and think about them and loving them and hugging them and just being with them and idc if they don't really feel the same or get to uncomfortable bc i can do simple things too like looking at them is enough to brighten my day so much that i just feel an aggressive amount of joy and want to let them know just how much i care about them every single second of every single day and damn. my life really changed bc of them.
Seen 3:07 AM
blueberry
you know what i mean?
mia
is this ur way of expressing ur love for jake
blueberry
what no haha what gave you that idea ...
mia
he just radiates that energy yk the one where people can stay up thinking about him all night and not give a shit bc he's jake shim
like who else could u be talking about
blueberry
you.
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blueberry
no yeah i get what u mean
but i wasn't talking about him
i was just overthinking lmao
mia
i leave you alone for 2 seconds so i can go to bed and you're already lonely
wtf do you want from me, park
blueberry
well if you're serious pls ft me
mia
rn
when i look like absolute shit
blueberry
oh shut up i'm desperate
mia
but what if i don't wanna
blueberry
:(
mia
what if i wanna meet up irl and hug you and talk abt things lonely people talk about and then fall asleep to the sound of each other's breathing
blueberry
...
idk bro there's smth about ft that just makes things more idk
❤romantic❤
mia
i never get what i want from u 😭
blueberry
must i remind you i have $3 in my bank account rn because of you
mia
honestly i'd rather u didn't
but i mean whatever makes you happy ig 🤷
blueberry
😌
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Second's later Mia's phone rings, making her curse at the loud ringtone. Quickly, she answers the call, her screen turning black. "I can't see your face," Mia says tiredly, making herself comfortable in her bed.
"I don't want you to," Sunghoon replies, his voice hushed. He sniffles and coughs, instantly making Mia worry as she sits up from her comfortable position, turns her lamp on and squints at her screen, trying to see the boy's face even though she couldn't.
"Are you sick?"
"No," he says. Mia can see his silohuete moving around, but she still can't catch a glimpse of his face. She frowns, which makes Sunghoon chuckle. "I'm not sick," he explains. "Just emotional."
"Why?" she asks, rubbing the tired away from her eyes. Even though the lamp in her room didn't provide much source of light, Sunghoon noticed the semi-dark circles beneath her eyes. The girl sighs, "Did you watch Up again?"
He snorts, shaking his head even though she can't see him. "I was just thinking about stuff - you know, puppies, my future, life without you."
Mia goes silent. Then she smiles. "You never know when to quit, do you?" she mumbles, laughing to herself.
He smiles, "Nope."
"Am I really a reason for you to cry about at three in the morning, though?" Mia lays back down in her bed, pulling her blanket up to cover half of her face. "Because if so, you're a fucking crybaby."
The girl's response makes Sunghoon burst out in laughter, despite his parents sleeping in the room across from his. The sound of his laughter makes Mia smile again, but she tries to hide it as quickly as she can. "You always find a way to hurt my feelings," he says.
"This relationship is fifty-fifty. You flirt with me to make me feel better about myself, I make fun of you to make me feel better about myself."
"How is that fifty-fifty?"
"I don't know, it just works."
The two friends continue talking, occasionally making jokes just to see the other person smile. At some point, they ended up going silent, to which resulted in Mia quietly singing the lyrics to Tear In My Heart. Sunghoon found her song choice odd, considering the time and how upbeat the song was, but he didn't question it. Instead, he let her sing as he laid in his bed, slowly falling asleep to the sound of Mia's voice.
A quarter past six in the morning, Mia could hear the boy's soft snores coming from the other end of the phone, the device gently laying on his chest. An instant smile appeared on her face as she set her phone down beside her pillow, turning in her bed to get comfortable. "Goodnight, Hoonie," she said, yawning before she closed her eyes, falling into her own neverland.
In the end, she did fall asleep to the sound of him.
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this is just really random but watching sunghoon's old figure skating clips makes me so emotional. the amount of times i've unknowingly cried while watching them is just... wow. every day he grows more and more and i'm so proud of him and all of his achievements. like when i see him now, he just looks so happy and seeing him like that makes me want to see him like that forever. you know what i mean?
anyways here's my personal fav clip of him lol
i love him so much my heart hurts
