The Alphabet Killer

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I WAS feeling mixed emotion when the doctor said that, I was feeling happy and scared at the same time. I'm not ready to be a mother yet. Lalo na at wala akong trabaho, magaaral rin pati ulit ako

The doctor excused herself to us, tumingin ako kay Rhyzielle na nakatayo lang. She was frozen, wala saaming nagsalita.

Being a mother is scary, kasi di mo alam kung magiging good mother ka ba or bad. It's also a blessing to be a mom.

"Ano na plano mo?" Tanong ni Rhyzielle, na nakaupo na "I'm going to go study architecture and I'll keep the baby" Sagot ko dito

"Sasabihin mo ba ito kay Auden?" That question made me stop. Auden..

"Sooner or later malalaman niya ito, alam kong maraming koneksyon si Auden" Tugon ko

I'm already 21, I can take care of the child that's in me, I'll be a good mother to him or her. I wish that it's just a dream, na di nangyari un saamin ni Auden.

I choose to be with him, and I chose to let him go and set myself free from the pain.

I'M WASTED, bumaba ako while rubbing my eyes. I have a hangover. Like always since she left. I've been wasting my life. I've been drinking

Baka nga ma bankrupt na ako. Ngayon papasok na ako sa opisina. It's been a month, since nung nagbreak kami. Dito na rin natutulog sila Astrid at Ezio

They've been taking care of me. "Ano, mapasok ka na ba?" Tanong ni Astrid na nagpeprepare ng pagkain. "Ginawa mo na akong CEO these past month. Ano ready ka na ulit maging boss?" Parang baril na pagbubunganga nito

"Ingay mo naman, ka umaga umaga" Sabi ni Ezio na kakababa lang, he was scratching his head

Inismiran nalang ito ni Astrid, I chuckled at umupo na. "Ginawa pa akong cook at maid" Pagrereklamo pa ni Astrid

Natapos na kami kumain, also naligo na kaming lahat. Ezio is driving us to my company, tas babalik siya sa company niya. Astrid is my secretary again kasi binigay na ni Ellouise ang resignation letter niya.

Another month has past, my day has been getting better. Pero from time to time umiinom ako dahil sakanya. Wala na rin akong alam kung anong nangyayari kay Ellouise

"You are wasted again!" Singhal ni Astrid

I rolled on my stomach "shut up, kagigising ko lang tas sesermonan mo nanaman ako"

"Get up, may work pa!"

I didn't listen to her, natulog nalang ako ulit.

Three months, I'm still trying to find her, wala na sila Rhyzielle sa dati niyang bahay. Histerix also left his house. I was going ballistic

"Find her, please" I told Zachary that was on the phone with me

"I'm not good at finding people, lalo na kung pinoprotektahan ito ni Kashton. It could be years for me to find her" Tugon nito

Nanlambot ako, years for her to be found. Histerix is always good at hiding. He is a CEO pero he's great at hiding people and hiding himself

"Just find her, magbabayad ako ng malaki" I said with a desperate tone

A year already passed. Wala pa rin, di pa rin siya nahahanap. Di ko alam kung saang school siya nag take ng exam sa architecture.

2 years has passed, it's been 3 years now. I'm still finding her. I hired the best tracker out there, pero wala talaga. They can't find her

Kailangan kong maging matatag, in this past 3 years. Madami na akong branch ng hotel, my business is even more successful.

Para sakanya ito, "can't you find her, with that witch power?" Tanong ko kay Astrid

"Hindi, I can only track when someone is near." Sabi nito habang abala sa café niya

May bago na akong sekretarya since umalis na itong si Astrid simula nung naging successful ang business ko. Kami ni Ezio ang tumulong sa café niya.

"Nalaman ko kay Ezio na pupunta ka daw sa bicol?" Tanong nito. I nodded tas tinulungan na siyang magayos

"Tapos na ung rest house sa bicol. It's supposed to be our rest house. Siya ung nagayos ng mga dapat na nandun" Ngumiti ako nung naalala ko ung pinagplanuhan niya

"It's not a rest house, it's almost a mansion"

NAKITA kong stress na stress na si Ellouise sa ginagawa niya, I softly chuckled and I hugged her behind. "Don't stress too much"

She looked at me over her shoulder "dapat maganda ung bahay!" She exclaimed

"It's just a rest house, honey" Hinalikan ko ang pisnge nito "kahit na! Dapat perfect un! It's my dream house actually" Pagkasabi niya nun

I scratched that fucking idea na rest house lang un, now it's gonna be our house.

"Make sure that when the rest house is built, you are with me" Tugon ko dito. Humarap ito saakin at tiningnan ako

She cupped my face and kissed my lips "of course, I'll be with you forever"

But that didn't happen, I let her go. Maybe fate doesn't want us to be together. Baka may iba talaga na para saamin

"Hoy!" Bumalik ako sa realidad nung nagsalita si Astrid, tumingin ako sakanya at tinaasan ng kilay.

"Bwiset ka, lumayas ka na nga, istorbo ka dito. Tingnan mo ung mga yun oh" Sabay nguso sa mga babae na nakatingin saamin

I chuckled and looked at her, "sorry ha, ganito kasi ako kagwapo para pagtinginan nila" Paghihingi ko dito ng tawad

She shook her head at pinakita ang disgutong mukha nito, I saluted to her, "I'll leave. Mamaya na ang pagpunta ko sa bicol eh"

NAKARATING na ako dito sa bicol, I looked at the rest house na pinagawa ko. Kinuha ko ang susi nito at binuksan iyon.

Ginala ko ang paningin ko, it's just how she liked the design of her dream house. I touched the frame that was near the front door

It was a picture of us, ung picture na di pa gawa ang bahay.

Oh, how I wished you were here, I'll find you, honey.

-T.M.B-