The Alphabet Killer

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THE FIRST day without her is like I'm in hell, I was suffering. Di ko pala kayang wala siya.

The first morning, I woke up without her by my side, hinanap ko siya. Kasi akala ko bangungot lang ung nangyari saakin

"Honey?" I called her out. Pero naalala ko lahat ng nangyari kahapon. It's not a nightmare.

Totoo ito, before I knew it. Someone came running in barging my house, si Rhyzielle un. Ang best friend ni Ellouise

"Tangina mo talaga" She cursed at me.

Sinapak ako nito, I just let her do what she wants, "tangina mo, akala ko mapagkakatiwalaan kita"

Hinawakan nito ang kwelyo ko, she pinned me down on the wall, sinuntok ako nito sa tiyan. I coughed "sinaktan mo ung best friend ko!"

She tried to punch me again, pero may humawak na sakanya, umubo ako uli, super sakit nung suntok niya. Pero masakit ung hinayaan ko siya

"Bitawan mo ko!" Sabi nito sa kasintahan, she tried to get out of his grip. "Sinaktan niyang hayop na yan ang best friend ko!" Mangiyak ngiyak na sabi nito

I looked at her "di mo ba alam? Na ako rin. Nasasaktan sa nangyari saamin. I tried being better by letting her go. It's supposed to be a happy day for us, because magiging fiancée ko na sana siya" My voice cracked when I said fiancée, tears started to pour down

"I tried everything to be a perfect boyfriend, I was being careful kasi ung background ng pamilya ko ay Hindi maganda. We killed people, pero that people needs to be dead, kasi nga they are bad. I tried to change that background, kasi nga I'm scared that she will leave me like that" I wipe my tears, I'm weak when it comes to her.

Nakikita kong umiiyak na rin si Rhyzielle. She was wiping her tears, "wala kang karapatan para gawin yan, kung sana di mo ginawa yan. Edi sana okay pa kayo" Dinuro duro niya ako

"I'm sorry" Yun lang ang lumabas sa bibig ko. I was choking on my tears.

I hold my chest "take care of her" I said to her

"I will,di mo ko katulad." She said fiercely, I sadly smiled, "tell her, I love her"

Lumabas na ang dalawa sa bahay ko, I sat down, I put my feet up, inilagay ko ang ulo ko sa pagitan ng tuhod ko, I phoned Ezio

Ilang ring palang nun sinagot na niya ito, "come and join me for a drink, dala ka na rin pala ng beer"

Binaba ko ang tawag, I look at my phone wallpaper, it's her smiling towards the camera while holding my hands. Ganun rin yung wallpaper niya sa cellphone niya dati

Tiningnan ko ang gallery ko, it was full of her pictures, some of them was stolen, I saw a video, we were in bicol that time. Calaguas to be exact

Nandun kasi kami for vacation at tiningnan rin namin sa bicol ung rest house na pinapagawa ko "ano ba, stop filming. Let's go na sa beach!" Pagmamaktol na sabi nito

"Honey, im vlogging our experience here in calaguas, okay?" Sabi ko dito, umirap na lang ito at umalis na. She stormed out

At ako naman ibinaba ang phone at hinabol siya, di ko hininto ang pagvivideo nung cellphone. "Wag na tatampo, lika na." I heard a kiss

I softly chuckled, "vlogging pala ha" I heard her say. Natawa nalang ako sa sinabi niya

And that's where the video end, I fucking miss her already. Pero kailangan ko magpakatatag, I'll protect her from afar. Ngayon alam kong nakela Rhyzielle siya.

Bumukas ang pinto ng bahay, I stood up. Kase akala ko si Ellouise un. Akala ko pinatawad na niya ako. But it's Ezio

Kasama nito si Astrid, may mga beer itong dala at alak. "You are a mess" Ani Ezio

Dumiretso si Astrid sa kusina. Para siguro maghanap ng pagkain, nilapag ni Ezio ang dala dala nitong alak at beer "it's just day one bro, naglalasing ka kaagad" Tugon ni Ezio

Tiningnan ako nito mula paa hanggang ulo, di pa ako nakaligo, I looked like a mess right now, pero mabango pa naman ako.

Binigyan ako ni Ezio ng beer, bukas na ito kaya nilagok ko ito.

PUMASOK si Rhyzielle sa bahay na mukhang stress na stress, kasama nito si Histerix. I finished crying already, I'm tired of crying already

"What happened?" Tanong ko kay Histerix kasi mukhang nag iyak si Rhyzielle

Histerix just shrugged and stayed silent, ganun rin si Rhyzielle. "Something just happened" Ngumiti ng bahagya si Histerix at inalalayan pataas ang kasintahan

My phone rang, di ko na tiningnan ang caller ID nun, "honey, please. Come back to me" Ngiyak ngiyak na sabi ng nasa kabilang linya

I froze, it's Auden.. Crying.. "Please, honey. Come back home. I fucking missed you"

I also heard Ezio and Astrid stopping him, "I'm sorry, Ellouise. Auden is just drunk" Tas nawala na ang nasa linya.

He was drinking, I sighed. We are both hurting. Masakit ung nangyari saamin.

I will just treasure our memories together kahit galit ako sakanya sa ginawa niya kay mama, tumaas ako sa guest room. I looked for the engagement ring

I opened the bedside table cabinet, kinuha ko ung pulang box. It was an infinity that has diamond on them. Binalik ko nalang uli ito sa cabinet

Sumama bigla ang pakiramdam ko kaya itinulog ko nalang ito, nakakapagod na umiyak

GUMISING ako na ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam. Nasusuka ako, siguro sa nakain ko kanina. I shook my head at bumaba nalang

Not minding what I'm feeling, pumunta ako sa kusina kasi narinig kong may naglalampungan dun "hoy, grabe kayo ha" Sabi ko sa dalawa

Ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko, I just remember falling down and seeing darkness

Nagising nalang ako ng nasa hospital na ako, I looked around. Nandun si Rhyzielle sa sofa, she attend to me.

"Ayos ka lang? Nahimatay ka nalang bigla" Pagaalala nito. "Masama lang ung pakiramdam ko"

Pumasok ang doktor at ngumiti saakin, what she said shocked my core

"Congratulations, Ms. Sanchez. You are already 1 week pregnant"

-T.M.B-