Knight In Disguise

What If...

There was no use saying no anymore. "Fine." I push my sleeve up, and show him the recent cut. "When did you do this one?" he asked grabbing my arm examining it. "Before we came over here." I said. I did another one too." I say looking down. "You don't need to do this." I sit back on the counter, "It's my life and my body last time I checked." I said sounding stern, I didn't mean to sound upset. I felt tears stream down my face, "I'm sorry." I sobbed. Luke embraced me in a hug. "I love you Sapphire." I shook my head, "No one loves me." I whispered. "Well I do, and I don't care if you don't believe me I love you Sapphire Jones." I opened my mouth to argue but Luke kissed me. It was different from our first kiss. This was filled with wanting and regret. I break the kiss and lean my forehead against his, "Do you ever think of what would happen if you let me jump off the building." I breathed. "I try not to think about it." he replys reattaching his lips back to mine. I don't want this moment to end, "Can we go somewhere?" I ask biting my lip. He grabs my hand and leads me to his room. I kiss him and he leads me to his bed. "We don't have to do this." he says. "I want this." I whisper. He smiles, "Just don't be mad...I have a lot of scars." I say removing my sweater. I sighed and Luke grabbed my arm and started kissing my scars. I watched him move to the other arm then to my stomach. "Sapphire, these scars aren't you. You are so much more than these." I smiled, "You saved me. I don't know what would happen without you." "Don't you have other people who have tried to save you." I shake my head, "You were the first person to treat me like a person." Tears started streaning down my face. Luke stopped, "I can't." I wiped away tears and covered my face, "Why not?" He laid next to me, "Because I love you too much to do this right now, I can wait. I want it to be perfect and for us to both be ready." I looked up at the blonde haired boy with a lip piercing and blue eyes. The boy who took time out of his day to save someone and the boy who took the time to love someone like me. I looked at the one person that mattered a whole lot to me. "Okay." I said sitting up and hugging him. "I cried the first time I thought about what would have happen if I let you jump off that building." I looked up at Luke. "I just sat and thought about it. If I let you commit suicide, I watched you fall of the building tears in your eyes and I watched you hit the ground. I ran down the stairs all 30 flights and called the police. When I got down there I just held you, held you close, I just held you and said I love you over and over again." I kissed him, "But that didn't happen, now you have me and my broken heart." "Let me fix it."