Dear Diary,
It's been three months and I still can't get over Damien. I try so hard but I can't. There are days when I think I'm over him but I fall right back down again. I was so used to him being there to pick me up but now I can't trust him. Maybe it wasn't his fault? I mean, that's what drugs do to a person, they mess with their intentions. I don't know, I've been feeling strange and depressed lately. Especially since Jarvis moved away, I've been feeling lost.
To be honest, I miss him a lot more than I should be missing an "older brother". It's strange to know that Jarvis has felt this way about me all along. I should've never fell for Damien. I'm so stupid.
Anyways, that's all I have for now. Pretty boring, I know. I'm just not feeling so great but I'll be fine...Someday.
Yours Truly,
Ella
