February 17
Dear Jarvis,
I never knew how much you meant to me, I guess you can say that I've taken you for granted. I love you too but I don't know what way I actually mean it in.
You've always been there for me until a few years ago when our friendship drifted. But now our connection feels like it's never changed. You've never changed, you were always the older brother that took care of me. You always will be that older brother.
I don't know if I feel the same way. Give me time, I still need to figure everything out and I'm not sure if I'm ready for a relationship anytime soon. I'm sorry.
You deserve someone else. Someone who loves you for who you really are. I love you but I can't love the way you want me to because now I do not know the sacredness of love.
I wanted to save myself for someone I really loved but now I'm so impure and I can never take back my innocence, meaning I can't be the person you expect. I would've saved myself for you but now that's not possible. I'm sorry, I'm not worth your time.
Yours truly,
Ella
