In the arms of evil

Don't go quietly

Doctors and nurses came running in within seconds. Sammy held me back while they swarmed her, the monitor wouldn't stop taunting me. "We're losing her!" One nurse screams out, beginning compressions. A doctor orders one of the nurses to throw me and Sammy out but I refuse to leave her. "Get your fucking hands off me!" I shove the nurse back, running to Brooklyn's side. "Brooklyn don't you dare die on me" I beg before two security members walk in and drag me out. Sammy follows and convinces security that I'll calm down. "You need to relax Colton. They can't help her if they're too busy with how you're reacting" he huffs. He's right, I need them to protect her and take care of her. "I know... fuck! I'm scared Sammy. I can't lose her, I can't I-" I break down against the wall, slamming my fists against it. I give up, weakly, my body slides down the pale wall and I slump to my knees. Sammy takes a seat beside me, he's watching as doctors fly in and out of her room. I can't bare to look.

A couple minutes go by, god it feels like hours, and a doctor comes out looking exhausted. I look up with a sliver of hope afraid for the second time today. Please let them be okay. "She's okay now. We got her under control. She's also awake if you wanted to go in and say hi." I jump to my knees and go to speed past him to be by her side, when he steps in front of me, blocking my way. I almost punched him until the words, "the baby didn't make it" come out of his mouth. I release my fists and feel a gut wrenching pain in my stomach. I swallow hard and look towards her direction. God, how am I going to tell her? "I'm so sorry for your loss" he says before walking away. I look down at my feet. I failed them. I couldn't protect our son. She's going to hate me. First Troy takes her child. Now I've done the same. She'll never be happy with me. I can't give her the life she wants. I just continue to destroy it after a glimpse of happiness. She'll never forgive me for this. Never.

I walk into her room with a heavy heart, afraid to touch her. "Colton?" She croaks out. Her voice is hoarse and she looks like she hasn't slept in weeks. But she's still somehow the most beautiful person in the world. "How are you feeling?" I manage to ask, stopping some distance away from her. She looks around and rubs her eyes, "tired" she replies. I run to her side and throw my head on her chest gently, holding her as best I can. "I'm so sorry Brooklyn. I'm so fucking sorry I did this to you". I begin crying again, but this time it's not out of fear, it's out of guilt. She strokes my hair and kisses the top of my head. "Shhhhh baby, it's okay. I don't regret a single thing colt, I'd do anything for you. I was ready to let go of everything knowing you'd be safe." I look up and look into those beautiful chocolate eyes I missed so much. Pressing my forehead to hers, I hold my hand on her stomach and wince. "What's wrong?" She asks, placing her hand over mine, looking down at her now empty stomach. "You're gonna hate me" I whisper, looking away from her. She lifts my head, holding my chin to face her. "Nothing could ever make me hate you. Not a single thing. What it is baby? What's got you so scared?" My god I'm the worst human being on the planet. This goddess is so in love with me she doesn't see I'm nothing but trouble for her. "Brooklyn... you were pregnant. He's gone baby. He didn't-" I take a deep breath, "he didn't make it." I look at her for some sort of reaction, but for a while she looks confused. "No" she chuckles nervously. "No there's no way. I couldn't possibly be... it's not like..." she scoots up on the bed and looks down at her stomach. Then it sinks in.

"There's no way Troy could take my baby... a second time. No. No it's not possible, not my child. Not again. Oh god please no, not again, no no no" she breaks down in heart aching sobs and there's nothing I can do to help her take the pain away. "I'm so sorry baby. I should've done better to protect you. Please forgive me" she looks at me and back down at her stomach, letting out uncontrollable sobs. "Not my baby" she says between sobs. I let her down. I let them both down. I hold her in my arms while she continues to break. I've done nothing but put her in danger and broken her beyond belief. I'm a monster. She's in the arms of evil and doesn't see it. I destroy everything I touch. And she... she will never be the same again.