Lacuna . k.sj.

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"Excuse me,I need to tell you all something important. Please pay attention."

The members nodded their heads and motioned for the doctor to speak,
"As I informed before, Mr Kim needs to be under observation for two weeks. We arranged for a therapist so,  please be redy to open upto her, she'll help you with all your problems so, there is no need for you to worry." The doctor spoke in a calm voice.
Seok-Jin sighed, looked down at his lap and started fiddling with his fingers, he knew that he needed help but to know that he'll be spending two weeks in the hospital was terrifying for him , he thought that he could've utilised this time to practice his dance and vocal skills. He once again felt like a useless burden to the members and ARMYS.

"Jin-hyung? Are you okay?"
Hoseok's voice interrupted Jin's thoughts and brought him back to reality, Seok-Jin shook his head and nodded , indicating that he was fine.

To be honest, Jin was not at all looking forward to his session with his therapist but he knew that it was for his own good so, he kept quiet about his distress.
Just the thought of opening up about his thoughts to a stranger made him feel extremely uncomfortable and nervous.
The doctor noticed Jin's nervous face and said, "You must be feeling nervous but don't worry, you'll get used to your therapist quickly."

Jin looked up at him and nodded his head.

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Night time arrived and Seok-Jin was lying on his bed alone and bored.
He was supposed to be asleep by now but he couldn't fall asleep so, he is now laying on the hospital bed  thinking about his day.
He was still in shock because of his suicide attempt but seeing the members made him feel happy and safe . He felt that they all cared for him , no, he knew that they cared for him as he saw the look of pure panic and worry in their eyes when they came to visit him.
The members were not ready to leave Jin even for a minute but eventually Jin convinced them to go back home and take some rest but still, Taehyung and Namjoon were not willing to leave so, now the both of them were in the waiting room.

Thinking about the members made Jin feel happy and warm but suddenly his thoughts went to his timetable and diets, the small amount of happiness he felt vanished and he wanted nothing more than to go home and practice, so that he can become a perfect human.

He then thought of his parents and felt really bad for them. They must've been informed about his condition by now , Seok-Jin knew that his mother was now probably crying and his father would be panicking. He now felt like a horrible son as he made his parents worry.
He was feeling really guilty for trying to end his life and not caring about his friends and family. The look of devastation and sadness in the member's eyes made him feel really bad.

His thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door, it was a young nurse with short black hair , she smiled warmly at Jin who smiled back.
"Are you not able to sleep, Mr Kim?" The nurse asked him in a polite tone.
"Oh...I'm not very sleepy." Replied Jin
"Well....your friends who are in the waiting room are not asleep too. Should I let them come in so that you won't be alone?"
Jin looked at the nurse and nodded his head indicating he wanted to be with his friends.
The nurse chuckled and went out , Jin was bored alone and he did miss the boys a lot so, he felt that he needed their company right now.

*Time Skip*

A knock on the door startled Jin and as soon as the door opened Jin saw Namjoon and Taehyung , both of them were looking extremely sleep deprived and sad. Jin's heart clenched at the sight and he opened his arms, the boys did not waste a single minute and ran into their hyung's embrace.
Taehyung started sobbing uncontrollably while Namjoon tried to hold back his tears, Jin felt his own eyes prickling with tears at the sight.
" Hyung..." Namjoon said in a whisper like voice
"Hmmm?"
"Are you feeling okay? D-does it hurt anywhere...? I-I'm so sorry for not noticing a-anything- I'm such a bad leader-
"No." Namjoon's rambling was cut off by Jin's firm voice.
"Namjoon-ah...it's not your fault. I did this myself...you are an amazing leader so don't blame yourself. It's my fault for doing this... I'm sorry".
Namjoon cuddled closer to Jin and Tae shook his head
"Don't blame yourself hyung. It's not your fault. I-its all okay now. You will be fine in no time."
Jin smiled and replied," Hmmmm...yeah, maybe..."
" Why do you sound so unsure? Don't you think you'll recover well?" Asked Taehyung with worry laced in his voice .
"It's just.... nothing. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine." Said Jin calmly.
Tae looked suspecious but decided to not ask much .
Jin was not really sure about his recovery as he was still feeling worthless and useless but didn't want to worry Tae and Namjoon . He was still not very happy with the idea of opening up to his therapist but he didn't complaint as he knew that he had to recover.

Jin sighed and closed his eyes , still cuddling Namjoon and Taehyung.

"I want to recover quickly and be able to practice , so that I can be a better idol and a better hyung to the members."
This was his last thought before welcoming a very much needed slumber.
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