Lacuna . k.sj.

16

Warning: suicide attempt !

"Little did they know that they were not going to see his happy smile anytime soon...."

Jin wanted to practice after breakfast but Jungkook was home so, he couldn't. He really didn't want to skip practice so, he went to his room, locked the door , turned the speaker's volume to the lowest and started to dance.
After twenty minutes of practicing, Jin's phone started buzzing, he picked it up and saw that his mom was calling. He happily answered ,"Hello Eomma?"
"Hello, SeokJin-ah" his mother replied in a cheerful tone.
"How are you mom? Is everything going well in the company? How are dad and Seok-Jung Hyung?"
" We are all fine. How about you?"
"I'm...fine..."Seok-Jin replied in a very unsure tone.
"SeokJin-ah don't lie, I know that you are not fine. " Said his mom with a sigh.
"I-I just....I don't know...I feel like I'm useless. Everyone hates me, I'm such a failure." Jin replied, his voice trembling with emotion and tears streaming out from his eyes.
"No, don't say that. You are an amazing son , a kind and caring Hyung for the members and a very inspiring idol for all your fans. You are not useless. So, you should not think badly of yourself." His mother replied with a calm tone.

"Thankyou Eomma , I really n-needed that..." Jin felt a bit loved after hearing all that from his mother, he was happy to know that atleast his family cared about him.
"Everything is going to be fine , okay? Ah! Your Appa is here, do you want to talk to him?"
Jin was excited to hear his dad's voice, so he said yes.
"Hello, Appa?"
"Hey son, how are you?".
"I'm doing fine, how about you?"

"I'm doing fine too" his dad replied with a chuckle as he was really happy to hear his youngest son's voice after a long time.
" I'm really sorry for not visiting you all frequently . We are really busy. But I promise to visit you guys when we get a break, I'll try to bring the members too." Jin said in an apologetic manner.
"It's alright, we understand how busy you guys are. But , talking about the members...." His dad's voice trailed off.
Jin was confused so, he asked,"What? What did they do?"
"Son, are you being taken care of well? When we visited you in the hospital, no one was there with you, everyone was with Jimin . I'm not saying that they shouldn't take care of Jimin but , leaving you all alone is just wrong." His dad replied in a very stern tone.
Jin was a bit shocked from hearing this from his dad. His parents loved all of the members equally so, hearing a complaint against them was shocking for him.
" Don't worry about that Appa, they take care of me very well. Jiminie was more injured than me , that is why they were with him at that time." Jin said .
He knew that this was a pretty bad excuse as there were five members and any one of them could've stayed with him in the hospital room but, he wanted to defend his dongsaengs .
His father sighed sadly and said," SeokJin-ah, but that doesn't mean that they can leave you alo-"
"Appa, I said it's fine. They do look after me very well. No need to worry about me." Jin quickly interupted .
"Umm...ok then, but remember that if you ever feel bad or want to quit this idol life you are always welcome to the company." Jin's dad replied.
"Yes Appa. But I don't think I would want to quit. Thankyou for worrying about me." Jin replied, he knew that his dad wanted to make him the next CEO of their company along with his brother , Kim Seok-Jung but Jin never liked business or anything related to it. He wanted to act but as he was street casted and trained to be an idol, he adapted to this lifestyle and enjoyed performing infront of ARMYS.
His father was really supportive but he wanted Jin to be the CEO so, at every given chance he would try to persuade Seok-Jin.
Jin's father sighed and said," Okay son, I respect your decision."
"Thankyou Appa."
"It was nice talking to you Seok-Jin, but now I have to go attend a company meeting. Take care of yourself son. Bye."
Seok-Jin smiled gently and said," Of course. Bye Appa."

Seok-Jin was really happy and felt relaxed after talking to his parents. He was about to continue the practice when he heard Jungkook calling for him .
Jin went to the living room and saw Jungkook , sitting on the couch .
"What is wrong?" Asked Seok-Jin.
Jungkook excitedly smiled and said,"Hyung , I'm gonna pick up Jiminie Hyung and the others. Will you please prepare some food for us?"
Jin was really excited to have the members back and he wanted to make sure that they all ate well so, he nodded his head and said," Of course. I'll cook a really delicious meal for you all."
Jungkook grinned and waved goodbye to Jin .