I Hate that I loveYou!

Can We Pretend

Carnell P.O.V
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*knock knock knock* I looked down at my sweaty hands. I'm so nervous. What if she don't open the door.

"Who is it?" I heard her yell from inside.

"Carnell"

She opened the door and came out.

"What you want Carnell?" She asked me,looking at me like I was crazy." You were rude as fuck last night. No, let's back track further. You were rude when you left me in that restroom. By myself, crying! You hurt me, and if you think a simple ass apology is gonna make me forgive you, you got me fucked ALL the way up." She was crying and all I could do was look down.

I felt venom in my throat, I couldn't speak. I had rehearsed this a million times since I had saw her last night. So, I don't know why I couldn't say anything now.

"If you ain't gonna say nothing Carnell, I'm going back into my house." She turned to open the door and I grabbed her arm. "LET GO!" She yelled, but I couldn't. My hand felt glued to her.

"I'm sorry T, I was jealous as fuck. The thought of you being with someone else is making me insane. I should have never said any of that stuff last night. I shouldn't have left you in that restroom crying. I shouldn't have been such a dick toward you but I can't help my feelings Tyra. I love you." I had let go of her arm and was now holding her waist. Her face was tear stained and her tears were still flowing." I love everything about you. I love the way your hair looks in the sun. I love the way you laugh then your scared. I love your laugh. I love how then you laugh you snort, and when you snort you laugh harder. I love how you silent cry. I love how you swear you short when your really 5'9. I love how you smile when someone compliments you. I love the fact that you don't realize how beautiful you are. You truly are like a four leaf clover.Rare. Anyone who happens to have you is truly lucky. Tyra I am in love with you. I love you like a love song. I love you like O.T. Genasis loves that coco. Tyra you are my everything and I feel like the day I left you in that restroom I left a piece of me. Your a part me Tyra. Can we pretend that never happened that none of this ever happened?"

"Yea, I forgive you Carnell . I love you too. I'm sorry too. I should have never slapped you. " I leaned in to kiss her like we've done a million times before. She kissed back but it was different, she was taking control and biting the fuck out my lip. I released her and looked her in the eyes again. She grabbed my hand and led me into the house. "Come on Carnell. I wanna give it all to you."my eyes got big as fuck.

"Are you sure Ty, " I looked at her ass, as she was leading me to her room. Baby got back. Once we got in her room she threw me onto her bed and jumped into to me straddling me waist.

"I want you to be my first." She licked her lips and her eyes were full of lust. She bent down to kiss my neck and bit it. I closed my eyes to fully enjoy everything that was about to happen.Then she smacked the fuck out of me.

I opened my eyes and instead of Tyra it was Marques.

"Nigga what the fuck are you doing?" He yelled in my face. I jumped up of the couch to realize that I was dreaming about Tyra. None of that actually happened.

"I don't know what I was doing, I guess I was sleep walking." I told him.

"Nigga, you was saying fruity pebbles type shit. You were on your Drake flow. Who the fuck you tellin you love?"

"Man shut up, I was dreaming about Tyra."

"Mane, fuck that dumb hoe," Quez yelled. His voice shook the whole house. I almost backed down but Tyra ain't a hoe.

"Shut the fûck up! She ain't a hoe. I mean I think you should know what a hoe is. Your baby momma a hoe, your sister a hoe, and your momma a hoe." I instantly regretted calling his momma a hoe about.5 seconds after I said it and he stood up.

"Look, I know that you're mad cause your little fuck buddy/ girlfriend broke your heart. But you keep those 3 out your fucking mouth, or you will end up swallowing you fucking teeth."

"Ight, I'm sorry,"

"Yea, and I apologize for calling Tyra a hoe. She cool though. Aye, do me a favor and go check on her. Make sure she breathing."

"Nah, I can't do that. Do you not see my face? Her boyfriend did this."

"Okay and, it's just a black eye and a couple of knots. Don't pick fights you gonna lose. So, with that said go check on her or we gonna fight. I still owe your ass for cracking jokes on my momma ole hoe ass."

"But,"

"Nigga, imma count to 3 and if you ain't out this damn house we gonna box, straight up.1...."

"Damn, ok"

"You still here, 2...."

"Ugh," I yell running out the door. I didn't even have shoes on. I walk across the dewy grass to Tyra's front door and knock. This is a new feeling. I used to have a key to this house. I was free to come in whenever I wanted, now here am I knocking at the damn door.

"Who is it?" I heard her yell from inside.

"Carnell"I yelled

She opened the door and came out. Just like in my dream

"What you want Carnell?" She asked me,looking at me like I was crazy." You were rude as fuck last night. No, let's back track further. You were rude when you left me in that restroom. By myself, crying! You hurt me, and if you think a simple ass apology is gonna make me forgive you, you got me fucked ALL the way up." She was crying and all I could do was look down. She was saying the exact words from my dream. I think I had a vision. A big ass smile swept across my face. I'm bout to get my second chance.

"If you ain't gonna say nothing Carnell, I'm going back into my house." She turned to open the door and I grabbed her arm. "LET GO!" She yelled, and just like in my dream I couldn't. My hand felt glued to her. But, unlike my dream the front door opened.

"Baby, why are you outside?"Her new dude Marco asked her. "Why is he holding your arm?"

"I don't know, Carnell let go of me!" She yelled trying to loosen my grip. I let go, and felt my face get cherry red. "What do you want?"

"Marquez said your momma wanted him to check on you, but he sent me." I tried to explain.

"But that don't explain why you holding her arm, seems to me like you were trynna win her heart. Are you really that jealous man? " Marco said crossing his arms over his chest and leaning against the door frame.

"Look man, don't nobody want Tyra. Ain't no one jealous either. There plenty of hoes that live in this street. Tyra ain't the only one" I tell him to get that dumb ass smirk off is face, but instead I see tears forming Tyra's eyes. Damn I keep fucking up.

"What did you just call her?" Marco said from behind Tyra. She hand her arms stretched out protecting me from him.

"Nothing babe, fuck him. He ain't shit. " And with those 7 I died inside. She was calling someone else babe and told be I wasn't shit,all in the same breath.

"Well, I can see you clearly busy, but if you need anything Marquez is next door." I tell them as I begin to walk off.

"Carnell," I turn back around to see Tyra smiling.

"Wassup Ty,"I smile back, causing her to giggle.

"Can you ask Marquez if he has any condoms?" I looked at her questionably.

"What did you say?" I asked her. To make sure I heard her right.

"I said, can you ask Marquez if he has any condoms? I wanna fuck the shit outta my boyfriend."she repeated adding more that I expected. I turned around and walked away. I don't think that the Tyra I knew would just give it up like that. But, I didn't know her anymore. She wasn't my bestfriend anymore. She was now my enemy.