I Hate that I loveYou!

Freshman Year

Carnell P.O.V
"I just don't see why you like him so much." Tyra likes this senior dude named Nathan when it's not even possible he likes her back. I mean she's a freshman.He probably just want to have sex with her.

"Dude you a hater." She said throwing a paper ball at me.

"Really Ty, I'm a hater." I asked her in my ghetto black girl voice, flipping my nonexistent weave.

"Nigga you gay."she said laughing

"You wasn't saying that when I was eating you out the other day." I whispered referring to last night at my house. She was tasting oh so good. I had her eat nothing but pineapples all day.

"Shut up," Tyra half yelled half giggled, causing Mrs. Froth to shush us. We were in the library studying before school. We were supposed to be talking about Romeo and Juliet. But instead we were talking about her and some senior."You know we just be playing around."she whispered again regaining her common sense. I rolled my eyes, to her it maybe a just experimenting, but I like pleasing her in a way that no one else has or can. I like how her toes curl, her back arches and I just wanna die when she moans my name.

"So you wanna give your virginity up to him?Cause that's all he wants from you. Is that all you good for?" I asked getting to the point.Tyra just mugged me. A part of her was hurt that I said that,but I didn't care. I mean I care about her feelings, but she needed to understand. Theses dudes want her because of her body.

"Fuck you Carnell," she picked her stuff from of the table and stormed out the library. Of course I followed. I may have took it too far.

"Ty, wait" I yelled down the hallway.She threw her stuff onto the floor in the hallway and ran into the girls restroom. I second guessed myself before entering, but I realized we were basically alone in this empty ass school.

"Ty, I'm sorry. I guess I'm just jealous" I said walking in head down. I placed my back against the wall and saw her converses shuffle under the third stall."please come out."

"Carnell, just leave me alone." She yelled. "Get out of here,"

"No, your my best friend and clearly I hurt you. I just don't wanna think about someone touching you like I do. I mean I know we agreed we wouldn't go all the way, and have sex. But, the thought of someone else pleasing you the way I do is....." Ty opened the door wiping her eyes.

"Shut up Carnell, "she walked over to me and kissed my lips. "No one could please me the way you do." I picked her up and placed her on the sink. I grabbed some tissue and wiped the tears from her face. She was truly beautiful. No makeup and she was clearly a 10.

"Do you love me Ty?" I asked her half afraid of what she was going to say.

"Of course I love you Nell, your my best friend ." She told me smiling her contagious smile. I smiled back even though that wasn't the answer I wanted. I laughed it off, but continued to speak.

"Nah, T. My question is are you in love with me?" I looked at her in the eyes waiting for the answer I've been dreaming about for 6 years now. But instead her smile went away and she looked down.

"Carnell, I love spending time with you and your honest to god are my best friend . I love you.....a lot...like for real...but... I'm not IN love with you.Or maybe I am ...I don't know... All we know is each other."she hopped down from the sink and looked at me.

"You right," I told her trying my best to hide my emotions. Boys don't cry. But this hurt my soul. I bit my lip and a tear fell. I couldn't do this anymore. "I love you too bestfriend, but umm" I looked up trying to make sure no more tears fell. "I think that umm ,we should start hanging out with different people." I looked at her for the first time and saw tears running down her face again.she shook her head in disbelief.