Loving him hurts
It hurts so badly I can barely stand it
I clutch my chest
Fists full of my t-shirt
And bury my face in the pillows
Praying he won't ever hear
I bite my tongue and swallow my sobs
Squeezing his hand in the passenger seat
Hoping that will be enough
When the broken record sticks in my head
Don't cry don't cry
Don't you dare hurt him like that
I choke on this pain til I'm heavy in the head
I bite my lip and tap my foot
Trying so hard to feel something else
I told him I was trying
But when the hurt makes me shake
I can't feel anything else
Loving him hurts
But so does hating me
Its the kind of pain that makes me whimper
Holding myself together while I fall apart
And I can't save myself from these feelings
I'm past that now
I need to overcome
But the weight on my chest
Makes this staying in bed easier
Than trying to repair a broken heart
Or bring order to my messy head
Its become pointless
I've become pointless
YOU ARE READING
Sweet Nothing
PoetryA small collection of poems written from a dark place in my head.. From the deepest reaches of my soul to the hollow of my heart, on your screen is everything I found the words to express, whether or not it makes any sense at all.
