I'll Be Fine A Nick Jonas Story (Book Two)

Chapter 30

Nick's POV

"Up next is our finale performance of the night! So everyone please welcome my brother, Nick Jonas!" I glanced up hearing the name of my voice being called from Joe. I slowly made my way to the stage. As I did I grabbed a stool and a random guitar. Once I reached the steps, I suddenly felt dizzy. I couldn't remember the last time I had ate something. I figured I'll get something after this performance.

Once I reached the stool in the middle of the stage, I fixed the mic. The strap of the guitar found it's home on my shoulder as I sat down. I brought the mic down to my mouth. Right in front of me was Shay with Ryan's arms wrapped around her. I caught a glance of her engagement ring. My heart fell as I took a deep breath. The song I'm about to sing, I hope she knows that I'm singing it to her.

In a slow rhythm my hand banged the front like a drum. I strummed after each beat I hit for the first 18 seconds of the song. My eyes scattered the audience as the first word got sung.

Nick- Why'd you call me today?
With nothing new to say.
You pretend it's just 'hello'
But you know what it does to me
To see your number on the phone.

Now tell me,
What do you want?
What to do you want?
What do you want from me?
Are you trying to bring back the tears?
Or just memories?

You keep taking me back
Taking me back
Where I've already been
When we hang up, it's almost like I'm losing you again
Can't you see?
So what do you want
What do you want from me

I get so tired of living like this
I don't have the time,
Neither do my friends
To stay up at night
To pull me through
And to find the things
To keep my mind off of you.

What do you want?
What to do you want?
What do you want from me?
Did you call to say,
You've someone who I used to be?

You keep taking me back
Taking me back
Where I've already been
If you moved on,
Why does it feel
Like I'm losing again?
Can't you see?
So what do you want
What do you want from me

What do you want me to say?
That I'm contempt,
That I'm on the fence?
That I wished you would've stayed?

Oh baby,
What do you want?
What to do you want?
What do you want from me?
You come here and make love tonight
Cause you're feeling lonely

You keep taking me back
Taking me back
Where I've already been
When we wake up and say goodbye
It's like I'm losing you again
Oh can't you see?
So what do you want
What do you want from...

Shannon's POV:

I watched in terror as Nick fell unconscious off the stool. My reaction was to run to him. But a powerful force pulled me back.

"Ryan what are you doing? Let me go!" I cried.

"No, you're not stepping a foot near him. Let someone else handle it," he said coldly into my ear. All the people around me watched in horror as Joe swiftly jumped on the stage. He ran to his brother; removing the guitar and turned him on his side. He lifted his shirt then injected Glucagon into his body.

I continued my struggle with Ryan as Joe tended to his brother. He was so distracted. That he didn't notice my fighting to break free. After many more attempts. I fought my way out of his grasp. I climbed onto the stage and placed Nick's head gently on my lap. As I rubbed he stubbled head. Memories started flooding in of when we were stuck in that rusty old house. I can't lose him again. I can't go through another three or more years without him. I've taken all this time I had with him for granted. Now I'm paying the price. It's all my fault that this happened. I was with him the entire day and didn't think to check on him. I was to worried about myself.

I grabbed Nick's hand and buried myself with it on his chest. All we can do now is wait and hope that he wakes up. I felt Joe's hand on my back as he drew circles around it. I could also feel two pair of eyes glaring angrily at me.

Then something happened. I felt Nick's hand coming back to life as he squeezed it tightly. My head shot up and I saw his mouth form a smile. He then opened his eyes. revealing his greatest quality. I heard Joe's sigh of relief as he patted his brothers leg. Myself was then pulled off the stage. The two guys shot up and glared at Ryan.

"There are you happy? He's alive and well. Now I said to stay away and I expect you to listen to me. This guy has done enough by hurting you over and over again. I'm not going to allow that to happen anymore. You'd be better off he'd never awoken from that coma of his." Joe made a step to fight him, but Nick pulled him back. He jumped off stage getting to Ryan's level. Nick looked him straight in eyes as anger rose.

"You don't love her," Nick flared at him. "You never loved her. Not the way that I do."

"Of course I do," Ryan fought back. "I wasn't the one who left her for 3 years."

"That's something I couldn't help and you know that." Nick kept his composer as every word Ryan said hit him hard.

"But once you came back. You left her again for another 3 to 4 years. Who does that?"

"I didn't leave her, she left me. I let her go because that's what she wanted. That was the only way for her to know how much I truly loved her." I tried to release myself but once again it got hard to breathe.

"That's a bunch of bull crap. If you loved her, you would've gone out of your way to get her back. But you didn't, you left her alone on the other side of the street. I was the one who swooped up and recused her. And I'd loved her ever since."

"Tell me seven things you love about her," Nick challenged him.

"That's easy, her smile, laugh, eyes, voice, body, hair," he then stopped.

Nick's POV

"Those are just typical answers and you can't even name seven ," I told him feeling a little confident.

"And you can?" He raised his eyebrow.

Oh, don't even get him started," Joe piped in.

"I love her smile because it always warms my heart. And with everything she has been through. She still shows it off to the world. Rather it'll be fake or real. She does it take make others smile with her. I love the way that when she laughs. a cute snort might come out. I love her eyes because they had seen many terrible things. Yet they still stay so beautiful and filled with life. I love the slight lisp in her voice and how adorable it is. I love her body because it still resembles her when she was 13. It always brings those memories back. I love her hair when it tickles my face. And when my hands get tangled in it's softness. I love her heart because she has a place for everyone in it. It doesn't matter what someone has done or what they will do. She's has a forgiving heart because she knows that everyone had made mistakes. I also love the way she closes one eye every time she yawns. Lastly, the reason for why I only asked for seven things. Because it's her favorite number. She was seven when she found her very first cat, Nikki. So it's always been her lucky number ever since."

I looked at Shannon as tears formed within her eyes. She throws Ryan's arms off her and jumps in mine. Ryan backed off as I lifted her in the air. Slowly I brought her back down to earth. Although, I seemed to be on another planet. The audience was left in a state of awe as we smiled back at each other.

"That's all very sweet and such. But she's not marrying you now is she? She made that promise to me, so obliviously she doesn't love you the way you love her," Ryan said in almost a mocking manner. My smile turned into a frown as I looked down at her face. She must've seen my heart break through my eyes. Knowing that it's true. I'll never be able to call her mine.

The trip back home seemed so long and almost painful. I wish I could've stayed. Why is New York so far away from Santa Barbara?

Song: What Do You Want From Me by, Jerrod Niewman