"Never Forgotten" (Sequal to Unexpected)

Chapter Eight

Soon enough Ashton and Becca wake up, Calum was passed out already and I just sat there watching Game of Thrones.

"How long have you been awake Jess?" Becca asked looking at me, "Since 3 something" I say and laugh a little.

It was now 10:00 I took a little nap but couldn't stay asleep, "Why where you up so early?" Ashton asked he he pulled a shirt on.

"Calum woke me up from a bad dream" I say then shrugs. "Aww poor Cal" Becca says.

I just smile at her. "Do you wanna come with Becca and I we are gonna get some breakfast" Ashton says and smiles at me.

"No Calum and I already went for breakfast" I say and blush.

"You two are something else, well alright we will be back later, don't forget later tonight me a going to L.A I think" Ashton says and laughs.

"Alright I'll see you guys later" I say and smile at them as they leave.

I let Calum sleep as I just go through my phone and check twitter and instagram. I could feel my mood drop with every comment I read or post that was about me being with Calum.

The picture they guy took of Calum and I walking back to the hotel where all over social media. 'Why are people so mean?' I thought I myself as tears stream down my face.

The comment that was the worst was someone said, 'Calum should of just let her and her friend die' Memories from the night flash through my mind, the thought of being tied up in that van and scared for my life made me cry harder I get up so I didn't wake up Calum and I go into the bathroom and just sit on the floor crying.

My mind was having so many thoughts going through it that I didn't realize what I was about to do.

In right hand held the razor blade. I was crying so hard that my vision had gotten blurry I push the blade on my left wrist and watched as it cut the skin, I moved and made another cut. I didn't even feel the pain all I did was watch as the blood dripped onto the floor and down my arm.

I made a few more cuts then just sat there crying more thinking about what I've just done.. 'How could Calum want to be with someone like me I'm a train reck" I say to myself as I was about to make another cut when the door flew up.

"Jess.." Calum whispers as he holds back tears and drops to his knees in front of me, he takes the blade and throws it away not even speaking he wets a towel and starts cleaning my wrist.

I couldn't even bare to look at him I felt so sick to my stomach and horrible. "Jess I'm so sorry" Calum says as he cleans up the blood on the floor now then places his hand under my chin and makes me look at him.

"I'm sorry too" I choke out threw tears then bites my lip. "I'm hate seeing you this way babe" Calum says as he pulls me into his lap as he is crying now too.

"I shouldn't be putting you through all this Cal. You don't need this in your life right now" I say as I whip some of my tears away.

"You don't understand how much I love you Jessica do you? It's always been you since the first time I saw you Jess, I new this girl was gonna have some impact on me and hell you sure have. I love and care about you so much Jess. And I hate seeing you do this to yourself. Thank god I came in when I did what if I walked in and you where gone I don't know what I would do with myself Jess." Calum says as he looks at me.

I up and stare into his beautiful brown eyes then sigh, "I'm so sorry you have to see me this way. It just things I read maybe me think of that day and I don't know I just shut down I guess I'm so sorry, you don't deserve to have to deal with this. But I'm so grateful that you are here. I love you so much Calum you don't understand how much you mean to me." I say and bite my lip then look down at my wrist they were still bleeding but they weren't as bad anymore.

"I want to be yours forever Jess, so I can be here to help you through everything" Calum says and places his hand on my cheek looking into my eyes.

I blush a little at what he just said, "will you be mine Jess? Will you finally be me girlfriend? So I can protect, care an love you forever!" Calum asked as he smiled looking at me.

"I wouldn't want anyone else to call my own except you, I would love to finally be your girlfriend" I say back and smile looking at him.

"Finally!" Calum says as he smiles pulling me close and presses his lips gently against mine.

I blush and kiss him back then smiles in the kiss pulling him closer. "I love you more then anything Jessica Lena" Calum says as he pulls away and smiles at me.

"And I love you so much more Calum Thomas" I say back and smile knowing I had the most amazing guy to finally call my own.

"Let's get you more cleaned up okay Love?" Calum asked as he helps me up. "Yeah that sounds like a good idea" I say back and smile as Calum cleans up my cuts and wraps my arm.

"Jess promise me, and I mean promise me please that you will never do that to yourself?  Talk to me if you ever feel like doing that" Calum says as he was now standing in front of me looking down at me.

"I promise" I say back as Calum pulls me into a tight hug and I just wrap my arms around him as I lay my head in his chest. "Thank you babe" He whispers in my ear then kisses my forehead.