"Never Forgotten" (Sequal to Unexpected)

Chapter Thirty Three

Calum's POV

And there I stood at the end of the bed looking down at the person who I loved most. "That should be me" I kept repeating in my head as tears stream down my face, there was no holding back because I was all alone now. Even with her gone she was still so beautiful. I didn't want to except that she is gone I couldn't.

"Jess baby, I love you so much and god I'm so fucking sorry! That should be me baby! Fuck not you!" I scream as I fell to my knees and held them.

"Cal?" Becca whispers already in tears as she cracked the door open. She looked to Jess and cover her mouth as she cried out, Becca wraps her arms tightly around me as she kneels down beside me. "Fuck Becca I'm sorry!" I says as I rocked back and forth.

"Cal breathe okay, please just look at me" Becca says as she chocked back more tears. I look at her blue eyes that where now red and puffy from crying. "It wasn't your fault Calum okay! Please god please understand that! Fuck Jessica she know that too Calum don't blame yourself!" Becca says as she grabs my shirt and crys harder then screams.

"It can't stop blaming myself Becca" I cried harder as I shake my head then we both look towards the door and see Danielle walk in holding a baby in her arms and I could tell she was holding back tears, she smiles weakly at me as Becca and I both stand up.

And then I realized that baby was mine, ours, Mine and Jessica's son.

"Collin" I whisper as I reach for him as Dani hands him to me, I looked down at his little face and smiled cause I could see so much of myself in him but best of all I could see her in him. His beautiful mother.

"Daddy is here" I say as I couldn't help but smile as I kissed the top of his head as he slept.

I tilted my head and saw both Dani and Becca holding eachother crying. I bit my lip hard as the door opened and the lads came in with there heads hung low and with red puffy eyes like the rest of us, "I'll take him Cal" Becca says as she takes Collin from me then kisses my cheek and walks out the door with Dani giving me a tight hug and following her.

As soon as the door shut the lads moved to the side of the bed as they cried looking at Jess. "I don't even know how to start this fuck, last I saw you was your wedding day Jess, I don't want you to be gone! You can't be!" Michael yells as he cried out. And this made Luke and Ashton cry more as I stood there looking at my mates, and seeing there reaction made me realize I wasn't the only one who loved and still loves this girl.

I closed my eyes as tears streamed down my face, then I felt multiple arms hug me tight, "Cal we all love her, and mate you know we are gonna be here for you okay" Luke says as he stares at me with tears in his eyes, "I fucking miss her man!" Luke adds then shakes his head.

"Calum look at me mate, your my brother, and that girl was and always will be my other sister, and I love her with my life. It pains me and is eating me alive to know she isn't here with us, but she will always be watching over us Cal, you and little Collin" Ashton says as he pulls me into a tight hug.

"Come on guys you know Jess would be so mad at us right now knowing we are all crying like babies right now, she would want us to be smiling and laughing at her memory" Michael says as he smiles a little and we all do.

The door opened and a doctor walked in saying we had to leave soon because they had to do something.

I nod my head and look at them then at her, "Can you give me a sec guys, and I'll be right out okay. The lads nodded there heads and all gave me hugs then left the room.

I took a deep breath and turned and looked at my wife my beautiful Jess, "I thought I would have the words to say but I'm choked up and lost on what to say baby" I whisper as I wipe away my tears.

"I can't say it enough how sorry I am that this happened, I will always blame myself Jess, because it's my fault. We will never make it too our one year of marriage together, but I will always remember it I won't forget a single one baby. And Collin... How can I do that on my own I'm so scared that I won't be a good father. And this would be the time when you tell me to shut up.. But I promise I will tell him all about you and how amazing you are and how much you love him and how strong of a women you are. I promise I will do that. Fuck baby I don't want to let you go I don't want to believe it I love you and will always always love you Jessica Lena Hood. I don't know when I'll see you again but I can't wait for that day baby."

After speaking I didn't bother fighting the tears anymore, and I stood there thinking off what Jessica would want me to do now that she is gone.

I no she will want me to keep fighting and to not let this keep me down, and to watch over Becca and to make sure she doesn't end up back into depression. Also to watch Danielle so she doesn't hide her pain and sadness and to make sure Delia grows up healthy. To watch the boys and make sure they handle this situation the right way. And to make sure Collin know who his mother is and that he knows that she loves him and always will and for me to try my hardest for our son and to be the best father that she knows I can be. Lastly to me and for me to know that I was her one true love and that's she wouldn't want me to beat myself up over this and for me to remember her smiling and laughing and all our memories we shared and to hold onto them forever.

And with that I promised to do what I know she would want me to do, and that just what I will do, to make her proud of me.

"Baby you're gone, but you will be 'Never Forgotten'" I whisper as I place a kiss on her lips then turn an walk out of the room away from the love of my life and down the hallway where I see my son, I couldn't hide the smile that was on my face as Becca handed me Collin because as I looked down at my son and saw that his eyes where open just a little my smile grew wide as I saw the shade of green the same shade of green as his mother's and right then and there I new we where gonna be okay.

I look around at everyone who was by my side and I feel grateful to have all these amazing friends who are more of a family to me by my side during this time.

"Never Forgotten" I whisper as I smile knowing that we where gonna be okay and that's just what Jess would want..

And that's it everyone..

"Never Forgotten" I'm not gonna lie but that was the hardest chapter I've ever written that's why it's taken so long on updates because I didn't want to finish it. I cried so hard while writing this chapter. And I really hope you all enjoy it.

Don't worry I will for sure be posting an epilogue for this I'm not sure when though.

Just wanted to say thank you so much to you amazing readers I love you all!!

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