It was almost eight o'clock in the evening when New checked his phone. There's a message from Tay which was sent four hours ago. His face suddenly turns worried and starts to dial Tay's number. Out of reach.
Hello Gun, where are you? Are you with Te?
Ei New, what's up? We dropped him in the house after we left the station this morning. Off and I had to do some errands and we didn't expect it would take long. We are about a block away. Why are you looking for Tay when you can just call him?
I've been trying to reach him but his phone's not ringing. He sent me a message around three in the afternoon, but only got to read it just now. The message seems... I don't know how to put it, but I'm worried Gun.
Where are you? We are by the gate now. We'll check on Tay and will call you soon.
I'm on my way to your place. See you.
New was close to running as he got out of the car and hurriedly searched for Tay. He found Off and New at the living room. Okay Tita, we will keep in touch, he hears Off talking to somebody on the phone. Ohm, make sure to give us a word when you reach him okay? Gun was walking back and forth.
Where's Te? New asks.
We don't know yet. Off replies softly. We checked his room, and his travel backpack is missing.
And what does that mean? New was looking a lot worried.
Off and Gun looked at each other. Gun nods at Off.
New, you said Tay sent you a message. May we know what it says?
New, I'm sorry I had to do this. It's just that, the past months and especially these past days have been really wonderful. This happiness inside me just feels weird and suddenly feels so unreal. I don't know how to explain it. I am really sorry. I would understand if you will hate me for this. But I guess, I just need to go for now, maybe sort things out. I'm sorry.
Off reads it silently, then hands the phone to Gun. An uncomfortable scene followed.
Okay, can you tell me what's going on? Where is Te? What did he mean by those words? New suddenly feels so lost, his eyes start to well up.
Off and Gun struggles in weary for the right words to explain. New, we still do not know where he is now. But we are pretty sure we will be able to figure out where he is, Gun starts. As to what is going on, Off tries to fill in, Tay is just scared.
What? Scared of what? Why does he have to go somewhere else? I don't quite get it.
Since Tay's last relationship, Off went on, he's been really jaded when it comes to his emotions. Much more on the idea of loving again. He would go on dates, then pulls off when he feels that things start to get serious. When he met you, we noticed that it was not the same in your case. Though there were times we knew he would act up again, we still found him walking forward with you.
Gun tries to go on and explain further. When he said yes to your invitation to join you in your Sagada trip, when he introduced you to his workmates and allowed you to join his activities, and when he introduced you to Tita and PMuk, we honestly thought that he had successfully crossed out his fears of really moving forward fully. But it seems, he is still at it again.
New starts to feel a deep ache in his chest. I'm sorry, but I also don't understand. What do you mean he is scared? Is he scared that this won't work? Is he scared that this love will not pull through? Is he scared that he will break again? Is he scared that I am not real? Is he scared that the love I offer him isn't real? New throws bullets of questions as his emotions create more ripples of pain.
We cannot answer for Tay, Off responds in a low voice. But if it's not too much to ask, can you just give him some time? We know that you are confused, we know that you don't deserve this kind of aching. As you both are important to us, can we ask you to hang on a bit more? Can we ask you to wait a little longer?
I'm not just confused right now. It's really hurting me bad. Ilove him Off, New replies with tears falling from his eyes. Ilove him truly. I hope he sees that. Was I not able to make him feel that? How can he doubt and leave just like that? It just feels so unfair? How can he second guess the love that I am capable of giving him?
That's why you need to fight for this love, New, Gun points out sympathetically. You say you love him truly. Maybe this love is asking you to be patient with him, understand him. I personally feel that Tay is happy with you, and that he loves you as well. But Tay's heart is obviously still under construction. Maybe this time off will allow him to hopefully find his missing pieces. New, it's impossible to explain to you how having you in Tay's life has changed a lot of things in him. But I ask this favor to you, fight if you really love him. Stay. Wait.
New looks at Gun and Off with tears, I will..heart and soul.
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My Ever After
FanfictionAfter having his third heartbreak, Tay made the biggest decision of his life, to relocate. It took him quite a while to move on, then he meets New, a former swimming coach. Will this be the ever after he dreamed of or will it be another broken promi...