Hindsight

1/10/21

L,

Not even thirty minutes ago I was screaming into the oblivion.

S and C are petitioning to make you an unruly child??? What the FUCK?? These stupid ass cock sucking fuckers will do ANYTHING to fuck with you at this point. This is nothing but a fucking power trip. Fuck them. I hope they rot. They fucking suck.

I researched the clause on the papers.

It says that they can't do shit to you if your guardians have caused you any physical/mental/emotional trauma or distress as identified by a proper medical professional. And fucking clearly, you have been caused plenty of fucking mental and emotional trains l trauma to last a lifetime and a half and it's not fair to you.

I went to Z's house again.

We watched American gods. It's a good show. Kind of weird, but I tolerate it. They gave me some kind of gluten free sugar thing that I really like. It's pure sugar of course, so I'm making myself sick AND rotting my teeth out of my damn skull.

My boss got mad at me today.

Wouldn't be the first time she has been upset with me. She is unusually rigid and strict. But I was keeping an interviewee company while she waited for a manager and when the manager came to us she shouted "you shouldn't be sitting down on the clock."

She's right, actually.

But all the chores were completed and no one was ordering food. So I don't think I was being too much of a bother. I don't know. I just think my boss doesn't like me either. She would not be the first, and most definitely will not be the last one, friend.

I'm so tired. My eyes don't want to stay open enough to finish a damn sentence. Ugh, fucking brain. Well, 3 more days.

I love you.

- L