Promised Love//DaiSuga Haikyuu

Part 9: Leaving

I trudged through life one step at a time;

head held high;

eyes wide open

I am not broken

I am leaving without the worlds choruses

And with true love and full promises

As I laid in on the hospital bed, hearing the clock ticking silently and running my hands across the silky bed-sheets, I thought to myself. So this is it? This is my ending?

I sighed giving in to my thoughts, letting my mind bounce from one idea to another. Did I accomplish everything that I wanted? Did I fulfill all my wishes? 

Questions, questions, questions, what happens to me when I die? My existence, would they remember me? Do I even want them to? 

Death is so easy, but living is so much harder. Should I be glad that this suffering is finally over? Although, it's death that gives life have so much more meaning, does that mean I should be sad?

I rolled over to my side, ignoring the tube supplying me with a clear liquid. I was restless, silently waiting for my death to come, why won't it just come already? I've waited long enough.

I rolled back to my previous side. Staring at the white ceiling and contemplating which side I should rollover to next, I felt a big thump on my chest.

Thump

Thump

Thump

Thump, thump, thump, thump-

My breath hitched in my throat as tears ran down the side of my cheeks. I couldn't see clearly, my vision blurred and my body felt numb. I couldn't feel the tip of my fingers and the constant thumping made it hard to breathe.

Thump

Thump

Thump

Thump, thump, thump, thump-

The heart monitor began to make beeping sounds and I could hear soft steps coming towards my room. After that, I couldn't breathe. The air no longer filled my lungs. I could no longer see. I could no longer feel.

Thump

Thump

Thump

Thump, thump, thump, thump-

People rushing around me, I could sense they were there but all I could see was white. 

Thump

Thump

Beee-

My eyes opened once again. Where was I?

I looked around, white, white, and white. Yet there was a door, a door right in front of me. I walked steadily to the door, taking each step with precaution. 

Twisting the door handle and opening the door slowly, I took my first glance and widened my eyes.

Suga...

"Dai-chan!" He ran up to me and gave me a quick kiss. "Geez what took you so long? I've been waiting here for so long!"

Tears ran down my face. I grabbed his young head in my hands, he looked like he was 20 at the most. "Suga...?"

He hummed. "Yeah?" 

"Are you real?" I asked.

Suga flicked my forehead and laughed. "Should I feel offended?" He continued to laugh and looked into my eyes. "I'm here Daichi Sawamura. I haven't gone anywhere. I've always been here."

More tears streamed down my face and I smiled. "Always been here? Why didn't you say anything?"

He rolled his eyes. "That's not how it works idiot. I had to wait for you, it was so boring!" He carried out the 'o'.

I laughed. "So what have you been doing?" 

Suga placed his hand on my cheek. "Watching over you. It would pain me if my death if something happened to you while I was gone."

I snorted. "And what could you possibly do when you are over here?"

He paused then laughed. "True, true! Although, when you finally reached here I would scold you for your idiocy!"

We both chuckled and I kissed him again, savouring the feeling of finally feeling his warmth and hearing his loving words again. "So, now that we are both here, what now?"

"Dunno, relax? We can do whatever we want! We've reached heaven...I think?" Suga answered me.

He grabbed my hand and pulled me along with him walking into the white abyss. He turned back to me with a twinkle in his eye. "Oh by the way!-

"Welcome home."

I'm not religious but I wanted interaction between these two, so here we are lol. To anyone who is, maybe comment on what you think happens when you die?

~Vincent