Story of our Life (Larry Stylinson/little bit Ziam)

Zayn

Hey guys,
No matter if this story is German or English, I'm publishing the same text at several stories so thats why its English, I know I couldnt write it twice, knowing I'm gonna cry while doing so.

Just two days ago I was sitting in my car with a friend and we were talking about the boys and stuff and Larry because hell, we both ship it hard. We were talking about Zayn and how he looks so horribe with his long hair but we still love him. We were happy and laughing and looking at pictures and we had a good time. Yesterday she sent me a picture with the offical statement and I was sitting in my car again, crying my eyes out. I didnt see it happen. I knew he was stressed and I honestly expected him to take a break when he left a few days ago but I didnt expect him to leave the band. I dont want to think about how it sounds without him and the picture of the band without him kills me. I hope he is going to come back when he realizes that he cant just stop and live a normal life or that he misses the band. I still wish him and Perrie the best and hope they sort their stuff out and finally marry because I love them together and I think a break is good for them. I want Zayn to be happy and I dont want him to regret his decision because he feels guilty for us. I've never been a Zayn girl, I never fangirled hard over him, but I love him, I love his voice and he is probably one of the kindest and greatest people on earth. I'm shaking while writing this and I know its going to be hard to continue my stories which I plan to do over the next days. I wanted to start again yesterday but I didnt manage after I got the news. Its hard but I know we will make it and the boys make it.

I want you all to know that you can talk to me if you need someone. You can message me here, you can comment if you want someone to talk to. You can kik me if you like, my name is _Careless_95, I usually do my best to reply unless I'm working but during these times we should be there for each other and share our tears to get over it and make the best out of it, remember the times when Zayn was still there and be excited for that what is coming now.

We need to be happy about the past, deal with the present and be happy about the future and we will make ist and we make them proud. The band and Zayn. We can make them proud and shouldnt make them feel guilty. We and our actions matter for what will happen next and we will be fine.

Lots of love to all of you ♥