Positively Negative.

"Its negative...thats the 36th test.." Gerard sighed, "Its not going to happen."

"Yes it will, we'll keep trying."

"Its no use. The times i do get pregnant, i lose the baby, other than that...its all negative. I think we should give up.."

"We're not giving up. We'll get our baby."

Gerard sighed and threw the test and the box in the trash, "Forget it."

~

Gee was completely silent on the car ride to Mikeys and Rays home. They had just recently had a child of their own; a beautiful little baby girl. Gerard knew he shouldn't be as jealous as he was, but if Mikey could have a successful pregnancy, why cant he?

"Gee, why aren't you eating?" Ray asked.

He didn't respond with words, just a barely noticeable shrug as he continued to pick around with his fork.

"Didnt you take a pregnancy test this morning?" Mikey asked.

"I don't wanna talk about it.."

He knew immediately what had happened. He'd watched as his older brother and his brother in law desperately tried for a baby; fertility treatments, surgeries, everything. Nothing seemed to work. They'd been trying for almost 3 years now, and it just wasnt working. Gerard envied people who got pregnant unintentionally, when he couldn't get one as much as he tried. They were becoming hopeless, Gerard much more than Frank. He'd had 2 miscarriages and 1 still born, it was tearing him apart that he couldn't have his own child.

"Well, we're here for you. You'll get there soon." Ray reassured him.

"I don't want to try anymore."

"Gee, having a baby is amazing, of course you want to."

"I dont. Well i do but...its just not going to happen."

Both Ray and Mikey looked at how miserable Gerard had become. He was hardly eating, rarely talking and avoiding eye contact with anyone. Every time Frank placed a hand on his back to comfort him, he shrugged it off and told him to stop.

"Gee...I hate seeing you like this.." Mikey cooed, as if he was talking to a toddler.

"Get off of me. Im not in the mood for your stupid lies. Im not going to have a baby, we're never going to be fucking parents. Just leave me alone!"

With that, he pushed his chair out and stormed off to the bathroom. He locked himself in and cried, he cried so hard he felt like puking. He saw Mikeys positive test from months ago on the counter, and a sonogram of their baby. He was planning on hanging it up in the bathroom.

There was a slight knock on the door, "Gee? Me and Mikey wanna talk to you." Ray said.

Gerard stood up and unlocked the door, still sobbing and whimper into his hoodie sleeve.

"Oh, you poor thing...Come on, Mikey has an idea."

He followed Ray into the living room, where Mikey was sitting on the sofa waiting patiently with his arms stretched out to bring his older brother into a hug. Gerard sat down, laying his head on Mikeys shoulder and beginning to sob.

"Gee...I know how much you want to have a baby and i know you're having real difficulties getting there...So me and Ray thought i could be a surrogate for you.." Mikey said.

"Why would you wanna do that?"

"Cause. I love you, and you and Frank would be great parents. The baby wont be mine, it'll be yours, it'll be my niece or nephew. What do you say?"