Miss Moon (Misses Series #3)

Chapter 20

"Maya?" I heard Mommy's voice from afar.

I watched her half jogged towards me and when I was in her arms, I cried again. I even saw Karaleen behind Mommy's back but she just watched us and caressed my hair.

"Nes," narinig ko namang tawag ni Kuya Io kay Ate Vanessa.

"I, sorry. Hindi naman sinasadya ng mga bata na mag laro." narinig kong sabi ni Ate Vanessa kaya agad akong napaharap sa kanila.

"It was no one's fault. It's not the nurse's fault nor the kids," I paused then sighed. "He's sick. Let's not blame each other."

Kuya Io, embraced ate Vanessa and Ynessa. Mommy is also crying to Daddy's shoulder while Karaleen is comforting Karean.

I approached the two and also levelled Karean like Karaleen did.

"Rin, are you okay?" I asked her.

Karaleen held my arm and gave me a quick smile before comforting her child.

"I'm okay po, tita. What about Kei? Is he going to be alright, tita? I promise we didn't play that much po, tita. We didn't tire him like what tita Vanessa said to us before we went outside and play." Karean explained as she is holding my arm.

I gave her a smile and patted her head. I know she got scared but acting as if she wasn't. A strong little girl like her mother. 

"Sorry, natakot pa ata ang bata." sabi ko kay Karaleen nang tumayo na kami ng maayos at si Rin ay pumunta kay Ynessa.

"Ganoon lang talaga siya mag explain, natatakot na baka ayaw paniwalaan kaya kinukumbinsi niya mga kausap niya sa pag hawak sa kanila." natatawang sabi Karaleen at pagkatapos nun ay niyakap niya ako.

"Kael will probably contact you this week. We'll just wait for the results okay? Tapos chugchugan na." 

Natawa naman ako sa kanyang biro at nahampas ko pa siya dahil sa joke niya. 

"Aray! Tawa lang, walang hampasan."

After that bickering with Karaleen, Marco went here to check Keiran's situation and to pick up Karaleen and Karean. Kuya Io went home with everyone, leaving me here alone to wait for the news from the Doctors about Keiran.

I can't sleep the whole night since my Keiran was moved in a private room from the ICU after they checked on him. They said he already needed a machine to support him.

"Mrs., he needs to stay here at the hospital for us to check on him every single time and also, we needed to find a perfect donor for him." the Doctor said to me as they moved Kei.

I didn't said a word since I don't know what to say. I just followed them where they moved Keiran and stayed by his side.

As I held his hand, I keep telling myself to stop crying since I was all alone here and my son needs me. He needed me as his strength. Even if myself I am also breaking because of his situation, I needed to be brave. 

For him. For my son.

"Keiran, please hold on. Hm?" my voice broke, trying to talk to him while he's asleep.

I caressed his hair then his cheek. 

The moon caught my attention or maybe it wanted me to look at its beauty. And so, I stood up and walked towards the window to look up. The moon shined so bright that gave everyone the source of light in the dark. 

I sighed, thinking that the moon saw everything right from the start. 

The moon saw how I fell inlove in a short span of time. The moon saw how dumb I am that night. Damn. Having sex in two different men in just one night. Tangina, Amaya lang malakas. Nakita rin ng buwan kung paano ako umalis nang nalaman kong buntis na ako kay Keiran. Nakita niya rin ang saya ko nang dumating na si Keiran sa akin nang ipinanganak ko siya. Nakita niya ang lahat. 

Lahat ng saya at sakit na nadama ko sa buong buhay ko. Nakita ng buwan ang lahat at ngayon nakikita niya rin kung gaano naghihirap si Keiran sa kanyang sakit at ako na nasasaktang ina para sa kanyang ina. 

"Thanks for getting my attention," I said, only in my thoughts, thanking the moon. 

The moon, it makes me calm every night that I saw it in the skies. And when the moon is not there, I kind feel nervous or something. I was used on doing that, looking up at the skies and find the moon for me to calm down if I'm having trouble.

Natawa naman ako nang bahagya nang biglang may tumulong luha sa mata ko. Pinahid ko rin naman agad dahil nagtataka ako kung bakit ako umiiyak habang nakatingala sa buwan. 

Masyado na bang mabigat ang nararamdaman ko kaya ako naiiyak nalang nang hindi ko namamalayan? Nakakatawa naman isipin na paano kapag may nakakita sa akin na ibang tao, baka sabihin nilang nababaliw na ako. 

Umiiyak habang nakatingin sa buwan. Tunog baliw nga.

"May," tumambol naman nang malakas ang puso ko dahil sa narinig kong tumawag ng pangalan ko.

Pinigilan ko ang sarili ko na umiyak nang humarap sa kanya ngunit mukhang nabasag ang puso ko nang nakita ko ang kanyang itsura na puno ng sakit habang palipat-lipat ang tingin sa akin at sa natutulog na Keiran. 

"I... I'm sorry," he then said then broke down. 

Pareho na kaming tahimik na umiiyak kahit malayo pa isa't-isa. Wala ni isa sa amin ang lumapit. Tahimik na hinahayaan ang isa't-isa na umiyak. Ngunit ko na napigilan ang sarili na humikbi nang naglakas loob siyang lapitan ako at yakapin. Parang lahat nang bigat, lahat ng sakit ay ngayon ko lang naiyak.

"I should've... I should've been there for the both of you, Amaya." Phoenix cried as he embraced me tightly, not letting a space keep us apart. 

I cried to his chest. Letting all the pain out. Like a kid crying hard because she's hurt. It pains me more when he's caressing my back to calm me down while he's crying too. 

I also embraced him and hug tighter. 

"I'm sorry, baby." he said as I felt a kiss on my head. 

"You're a great mother to our son, Amaya. I'm so proud of you." he said as I continue crying in his arms like a lost child.

The moon saw all our pains. On how we held on for a long time and then the moon saw everything what is happening tonight, on how we meet again but in a different situation.