Fresh Start (a Twilight fan-fiction)

CHAPTER 22:

"Okay, I need you to explain the feeling to me." Carlisle says patiently as I attempt to control my breathing, still thinking about the events with the deer that happened a couple hours ago, but feels like a shorter time, as the memory is still newly fresh in my mind. I swallow, clutching my knotted hair in my fists, and close my eyes.
"It's like, the blood was warmth. And I've been so cold." I flinch slightly. "The blood pours life into me, makes me feel whole again instead of empty like now. It's like a drug buzz, you feel like you could do anything and you feel like you're floating." I open my eyes slowly and blurt out unintended words. "But with Jacob it's twenty times worse." My eyes widen at my admittance, as do Carlisle's.
"With.. Jacob?" He says slowly.
"Yeah.." I mumble. "It's like his blood is singing to me." Carlisle stiffens at this, and I look at him curiously. He taps his pen on his board for a second before standing up and looking out the window of the living room, seeming to be stalling for time to think. I study his handsome features carefully.
"Just get some relaxation, you've had a rough day." He finally says gently, ruffling my hair lightly and kissing the top of my head before walking out of the room. I curl up on the couch, stealing the soft chocolate coloured throw blanket off of the back and snuggling it around me.

I flutter open my eyes as someone slides their way under me. Looking into Jacob's eyes, I start to tear up.
"Shhh, I'm here." He combs my hair with his fingers and watches me carefully as I sniffle unattractively.
"Jacob." I sob and clench his shirt tightly, burying my face in his burning neck. I hear a slight ripping noise and look down to see I had gripped his shirt so tight, I had torn two long strands from the material. The shock on his face makes me laugh hysterically, but continue crying at the same time. He smiles his usual crooked smile at me, but it doesn't reach his eyes. I know that I need to build his love again, and his trust. I need to nurture it until it blossoms again, but that could take a long time. I shake my head in frustration at my hesitating doubts.
"Eve," Jacob takes my chin and forces my head to look up with strength, but somehow gentleness too. I stare into his brown eyes, searching for a reason to hate him for how he reacted to his transformation. But all I see is his perfect face. The face I love, and crave to see every single minute. I gasp as the warmth inside me reappears, and I hadn't even drunken any blood since this morning.
"Eve," Jacob repeats and I refocus on his face, giving him my full attention. I see tears collect in his eyes and feel worry hit me. Worry he'll leave again.
"Eve I love you. And I thought I hated vampires. I thought I hated you like this. But every second I'm away from you, it's like you're in my every thought, and no matter how hard I try, I can't distract myself from it. It was hell seeing you a vampire. But aren't couples supposed to accept each other no matter the flaws and changes they go through? Isn't that what your shitty romance books that you always read say?" He smiles through his watery eyes and I laugh, the sound full of joy and happiness. He's not leaving me again. Slowly as my giggles subside I see his serious face. Suddenly he rolls so we're on the floor, him hovering over me. I see the intensity in his eyes.
"Jacob-" I say softly but his lips on mine erase all thoughts. The craving behind the kiss makes me smile against it before rolling so I'm on top, smirking at his shocked reaction to my strength. Before he can react, I'm back to kissing him roughly. His hands grip my waist so tight if I were human I would've complained at the ache. But I feel no pain as we kiss. Jacob pulls away suddenly, out of breathe. I feel embarrassment hit me as I realize I'm not, and never will be. But before I can really let the feelings hit me, I sense someone in the doorway to the living room. Whirling around and still on top of Jacob, I spot Emmett smirking.
"Damn," he crows out. "If I saw you two in the woods, I would think you were grizzly bears fighting over a salmon." He doubles over in laughter as I feel my jaw drop. If I had any blood in my body to create a blush in my cheeks, they'd be flaming red right now. I hurl a pillow full speed at him but he dodges it.
"Careful," I smile tauntingly. "I'm still stronger than you for a few months." He snorts at this.
"You wish." He smirks and I stand up hurriedly to attack but he's already gone. Laughing, I settle back down to the floor.
"Where's everyone else?" Jacob asks, looking around. I smile, pulling the remaining shreds of shirt from his bronze chest.
"Out hunting, Emmett was the last one to leave." I run a hand up his arm and know he's not just shivering from the coldness. He smirks at me.
"Well let's take advantage of that." I laugh out loud as he kisses me, making every problem disappear in just these moments.

I am ending this book though, soon to make an epilogue. But I might just write a sequel, or another twilight fanfic of sorts. Comment or message me ideas and your thoughts. Thank you for all the reads and votes and comments. <3 love you all