Troubled (Dallon Weekes' sister)

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-Elle
As the alarm sounded, i groaned and rolled in the bed, then decided to wake up, i walked to the bathroom and turned the shower on, i stepped in, and tried to wake up as the water was falling, God i hate school, i want to be a make up artist, how could math help me? Ugh.

I stepped out and wrapped myself in a towel, then i walked to my closet and put on my undergarments, then i dressed up in dark denim skinny jeans, a red 3/4 sleeved blouse and my combat boots(yes, i love them) then made a high ponytail and just did a natural makeup, that was foundation, blush, powder and mascara, then i grabbed my phone and bag to walk downstairs.

I smelled breakfast and went to the kitchen, i was still early for school so i decided to eat whatever there was. My mother was preparing waffles and some fruit, so i sat down and she served me, i was eating expecting to be screamed at because of my yesterday's reaction at dinner, but my mother just said "Your brother will be home tomorrow" and i nodded my head still chewing
"I know, need me to clean and stuff?" I asked smiling, i don't want to make her anymore disappointed
"May be when you come back from school we can do some cleaning, now go because it's getting late" she said and smiled, i nodded and hugged her, then grabbed my stuff and went to school.

I was walking and i catched up Annya, who was listening music, i tapped her shoulder and she unplugger her earphones and hugged me, we walked silently and as we arrived we saw Gabe sitting in a tree, he walked towards us and said hi, then we kept walking to the entrace, school days are so boring, i can't wait for tomorrow for the weekend and for Dallon to be here.

Classes started as normal, the strange thing today was that i was early, so I wasn't embarrassed in front of everyone, again, but besides that, everything was normal.

At lunch time, i was in line to get my food also with Gabe and Annya, we were talking about random school stuff, and then Gabe started complaining about the menu for today, that was oatmeal or cereal with fruit, and seriously, those plates were not tasty at all, they were so nasty.

As i got my cereal bowl and fruit we walked towards the same spot we had in the garden, we sat down in the little table and we were talking and making nasty comments about the food we were trying to eat, we had like a really great time and stuff, but suddenly food was nastier than it ever had been to me, so i just stood up and threw it in the bin, well, may be it was not suddenly, it was because i remembered the comments of yesterday's lunch time with Bettany.

When I got back to my seat Gabe and Annya were giving me this weird looks that say 'what the hell dude?'

''I know our comments were nasty but, seriousky you threw it away?' Anny asked and looked at me, i needed to lie about it, i didn't wanted anyone to look at me as i had problems because that pity loks sucks.

''Yeah, well I'm sorry I was just really full, my mum made breakfast today, so yeah, i ate at home'' I lied and smiled, Annya nodded and smiled but Gabe shook his head and just looked away.

We kept talking and I pretended that Gabe wasn't giving me those death glares, but I knew he hadn't and wouldn't drop it, so I woukd have to face a conversation later. The bell rang after a few minutes and we walked to our classes, we had no classes together so it was a good thing, I was walking to my classroom and I remembered i had this Literature class, with Bettany, ugh, sucks, see? school sucks.

The teacher told us to write this paragraph about who we wanted to be and poetic shit, which i didn't minded at all, because that is my thing, I guess nobody will ever know, but writting is the only way I can really express myself, without being like really judged, because I write it in stories, I make up characters that are different versions of me.

''Elle, can you please read us your essay?'' Miss Anneliese asked and i nodded and walked to the front, and i heard Bettany's idiotic laughter, I stood in the front of the desk, facing all of my classmates, feeling panic consuming me, so I took a deep breath and prepared to speak.

An it started ''Sometimes I ask myself why am I here? And no answers are in my mind, I even think that may be i was born for nothing, but then another thought crosses my mind, what if i still don't know my real reason to still be alive? I may not be a very religious person, but I still think that if there's God, may be he sent me here to so something for some one, and that is the thing that is always bugging me at nights, the thought of what am i supposed to do, or who am i supposed to help, and sometime I think just be happy and live on, may be a day, you will find out why were you sent to this world'' I said and everyone was quietly looking at me, then the miss asked for opinions about my paragraph, so yeah, asi you can imagine, Bettany had one.

''I mean, it was good, but, there is so much sadness, probably, if you don't know why are you alive, then you shouln't be, but yeah, it was kind of dramatic, but good, nice Weekes'' she said and i just quietly walked to my seat, i wanted to slap her but i contained myself, I grabbed my earphones and cellphone, plugged the earphones and sleected a song, I was not paying attention to the rest of them but suddenly i felt a paper ball hitting my head, i turned and took it, then i opened the folded piece of paper and read it 'What I meant is that you should kill yourself you ugly piece of shit' of course, Bettany, ugh that bitch, but probably she was right, a voice in my head told me, and i tried to push it away, no, no she wasn't right, it's just an essay, i tried to push the voice away, this can't happen not again, and i focused on my phone, on the music, this can't happen again.

The last hour had finished so I went to my locker to put my things away and saw Bettany approaching me, i tried to hurry and as i was closing my locker i felt someone behind me, and yes, yes it as Bettany, she just slapped me and walked away, what in the actual fuck? I angrily walked toward the exit and I saw there Gabe, I assumed Annya already had left so I kept walking normally, but he caught my arm.

''Hey Gabe'' I said trying to act cool, he looked at me and we kept walking

''Elle, something you want to tell me?'' he said and i just shrugged in response ''really Elle, anything?''

''Need to go?'' I said and he rolled his eyes ''Look, if this was about earlier, i wasn't hungry okay? i mean seriously i have like no problems, or stuff, i really need to go, Dallon will be home tomorrow and i need to help my mum to clean up'' i said and walked away, i knew it was stupid to lie like that but i needed to, i wont break again 'yes you will' the voice said again, ugh just shut it, dammit.

I unlocked the door and walked to my room, no hello or anything, I wasn't in the mood for getting questions, I opened the door and then I was like super shoked.

''Hey sis'' Dallon said and walked up to hug me