Troubled (Dallon Weekes' sister)

Epilogue

Elle-

Help, I have done it again...

It's been a year, but nothing gets better, it never does, and i can't do this anymore, I have no one left, i am so done, i am so done, i lost what was left of love in me.

Nobody's home, i am lonely everyday, right now i am lonely right now, just me, and the voices in my head, the ones that have been here since i started hurting myself, the ones that helped me doing bad things and cover up, the only ones i have left, but not for much though.

I grabbed what was necessary and walked to my room, closed the door and locked myself, that would give me some time, then i walked to the closed and grabbed my black short sleeved dress, changed into that, and did my hair in a ponytail.

I looked okay, no shoes, i needed to be confy, i turned on the christmas lights instead of my the regular light bulb, then walked up to the bathroom, closed and locked the door.

I stood in front of the mirror, took a deep breath and removed my makeup, that way if i cried, my mascara wouldn't be all smudged, i smiled satisfied, it was kind of creepy, like really, my smirk was an evil one, but still, genuine.

I opened the little doors below the sink and stared inside for a second befores taking what i was looking for.

Finally, i grabbed it and closed the door, turned off the lights just lighting up some candles, lavander, my favourite smell in the whole world. I turned on the water, and got in the shower, it was getting warmer by the second, i slid in a corner of the shower and took a deep breath.

"Here we go" I said and smiled, i took it, finally, it took me long enough to get it 'two years' i know, but finally i will do it, 'you will see him again' i know.

I did a first cut with my brand new razor, it was a good cut if you ask me, a deep one, it's easier to cut when you're in the shower, blood loss is better.

I did one more, deeper this time, i was so ready for this, and yes, i am insane, but that's better than being all alone.

I did 3 or 4 more, deeper, and deeper, i was feeling lightheaded, blood loss effect, but, what gave me the signal, what made me get i was about to die, was in deed, seeing him, meaning: i was about to die.

"Elle" he said and smirked, may be i was crazier or may be i was just used to it, but that mean tone, that evil smirk, it was so good right now, i nodded "you finally did it, took you long enough" i nodded weakly, he walked up next to me and i made the final cut, there was not much left to do.

I gave him my hand, and nodded, i was ready for this, he nodded and kissed me in the lips, i was finally getting what i wanted, i was dead. Soon it was all darkness, this was not the end.

I saw my body, lying on the shower, the water still running, blood everywhere, my arms cut open, it could be depressing for some, but for me, i was so done of life. He came back, and stared at my dead body.

"Death suit you" he said and i nodded satisfied "But Elle, this won't be any better" he said and smirked. It made me so confused, what the hell?

"What do you mean? I finally killed myself" I said really confused "I did what you told me to do two years ago, i killed myself to let go of all the sorrow"

"You stupid, you may be dead,but you know, killing youself ony leads to one thing, you idiot" He said and smirked again, then, darkness, after that, i was in the beginning, i couldn't be more stupid.

People i knew were surrounding me, and i was in the school ground, they were laughing at me, i was scared, this was a dream.

"You wish it was, but, you killed yourself" he said and got closer to me, face to face, i was so scared, it was all the scene over again "Welcome, Elle, welcome to your own personal and eternal hell"

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A/N:

Hey people! You've reached the end of this story, i know, it was like a weird ending, and kind of sad really, but, yeah.

And also, well, thanks for reading this, it made me really happy that i got readers! and if you cut, or self harm in any way and you're like thinking about suicide, please don't, if you like need to talk to any one you can message me or send me a DM on twitter: @lfernannda or on Instagram @fernandapenam_ may be talking to a stranger can help!

Remember i love you and i am greatful you're here!

-Marinasdiamonds11