Troubled (Dallon Weekes' sister)

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Elle-

After the morning events i went to classes and thought about everything, about Annya, Bettany, and things around me, i was really distracted during class until the lunch bell rang, so i slowly picked up my stuff and walked out, i was really not hungry, the voices in my head wouldn't let me eat even if i wanted to, so i just went for a walk, since Annya and I were not speaking and Gabe was always by her side i decided that the best thing for now was to be alone.

I was walking in the patio and saw Annya and Gabe in our spot, just besides an oak tree in the little garden space, i felt really sad about not being able to be with them, because i had missed them so much and just for a stupid thing we weren't talking. I was walking towards them to say i was sorry but as i got closer they both stood up and walked away.

'See, they don't want you around' the voice said, no they do, they are just upset, i kept arguing until i realised that may be it was true, they didn't wanted me near them 'yeah, they dont, because you're toxic' i know i am, and may be i should just get this over with 'you should, now you are listening' i know, i just need time, i kept walking through the halls, and towards the restroom, i must have looked really rare because people stared at me, i was walking like a zombie, so when i entered the restroom i let myself in a cubicle and closed the door, i sat on the floor and hugged my knees, that was the last thing i remembered until i woke up here.

"Elle, Elle, do you know where you are?" Dallon asked softly, i looked all around the place, white, i was plugged into an iv, i was bandaged, what happened?

"Umm, hospital?" i said confused and Dallon nodded, then he hugged me and whispered "you scared the shit out of me" i looked at him really confused, what happened before i woke up? why was i in here? "Dallon, what, what happened?"

Dallon stared at me in total shock, i guess he wasn't expecting that, "you don't remember?" i just shook my head and he hugged me once again "we almost lost you Elle, you tried to kill yourself" i felt a knot in my stomach, did i really did this? 'yes you did, and failed' no, i didn't, i was in complete shock, i just, this was not what i remembered... then everything, every memory of that day started flooding my head; Annya, Gabe, walked away, Bettany, scratch, food, voices, restroom; then i matched it with this scene: bandaged, iv, hospital, tears, failure. I did tried to kill myself.

"My baby, why, why? i thought you were already okay" my mum said hugging me, she was in tears, which made me feel really guilty, this was all my fault, i shouldn't had failed.

"I'm sorry mum" i said blankly, the doctor came in and instructed everyone to go out, he asked me how was i feeling, and i said okay, and then a couple of questions about why i had done this, and all i said was lies, i couldn't tell her this pity story, and she just said "Elle, i am truly sorry, and the best way to help you is sending you to a rehab clinic"

"I'm not crazy okay?" i said sternly, she gave a pity look and i got really mad "don't look at me that way, i'm not a dog"

"This is the best way to help, i will talk to your parents and see what they think about this, meanwhile, you should sleep" she said and walked away, as soon as i saw her go out, and start talking to my parents, tears started streaming down my face that soon turned into sobs, they couln't send me.

I fell asleep from crying so much, Dallon was by my side when i woke up also he looked like he'd been crying, which broke my heart, he was holding my hand and was in an unconfortable little chair.

"Elle, baby, you need this help, this is for you" Dallon said and i started sobbing again, they did accept 0they just don't want you around'

"go away, you betrayed me!" i screamed and he kept holding my hand expecting me to calm down. But no, he betrayed me, he was the one i trusted, my own brother.