HATE OR LOVE

[24] 3 words, 8 letters

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝟐𝟒

Time seems to pass more quickly in certain situations, especially when you're having fun. Today is the last day of the month, the last day of our deal. A lot has happened in the past few days that cause my mind and heart confused.

Something has changed in my feelings. It's not very deep, but it causes a ruckus inside my whole existence. Sa mga oras na 'yon, akala ko mababaliw na ako dahil sobrang gulo ng utak ko. Hanggang sa makausap ko si Shirley ng masinsinan, All the words she told me made me realize what I really felt about him.

"Come on, Mardux! You like him, okay? Hindi mo lang maamin dahil pati sarili mo, hindi makapaniwala na nahulog ka sa kanya."

Ilang beses akong umiling. "No! Wala akong gusto sa kanya!"

"Then, why did you cry when he told you he loves you? Why did you kiss him back if you don't feel the same?"

I was speechless. No words came out of my mouth.

I love you

Simula noong banggitin niya ang tatlong salitang 'yon, Ilang gabi akong hindi nakatulog ng maayos. It was the first time I heard those words from him. I thought he only liked me. Then what's with the sudden I love you? Is he serious when he told me those words? Bumigat ang talukap ng mga mata ko bago ako suminghap at naluha sa hindi ko alam na dahilan.

I like him. Gusto ko rin si Blood. 

When I arrived at school, my eyes quickly searched for Blood. I'm expecting him to be the first person to greet me a good morning, but he's nowhere to be found. Nakaramdam ako ng lungkot.

"Absent ba si Blood?" hindi ko na napigilan ang hindi lumingon kay Clint. I caught him secretly staring at Shirley.

He looks melancholy. Bakit kaya?

Napalingon siya sa akin at mabilis na ngumiti. "I don't think papasok siya ngayon."

My forehead wrinkled. "Bakit?"

"He's sick,"

Umawang ang labi ko sa narinig. "He's sick? Bakit hindi ko alam? I was with him yesterday! He doesn't look sick-" Then I suddenly remembered how fake his smile was yesterday. He doesn't look festive like before. I asked him yesterday if he was okay, and he said yes. So, I believe him.

I swallowed my saliva. "Is he really sick?"

He nodded. "Oo. I don't know what exactly happened but he called me last night na hindi siya papasok ngayon..." Nanahimik ako saglit nang magsalita siya ulit. "If you're worried about him, call him."

I bit my lips. "M-Mamaya na lang siguro,"

Hindi na siya sumagot dahil dumating na ang teacher namin. Ilang oras akong balisa. I want to see him! I want to take care of him if he was really sick! Hindi ako ganito dati, hindi ako ganito. Ngayon lang, sa kanya lang.

"Class dismissed!"

Mabilis akong tumayo nang matapos ang last subject. Pinasok ko na lang basta sa loob ng bag ko ang mga gamit kong nakalabas dahil aligaga na akong makaalis.

"Mardux, where are you going?!" rinig kong tanong ni Shirley pero tumakbo na ako palabas.

I rushed to the gate of the blue academy when I bumped into someone. When I glanced up, the corners of my eyes quickly got wet.

"B-Blood," A tear fell from my eyes.

His eyebrows furrowed while staring at me.   "Hey, what happened? Why are you crying?" He looks confused.