To a future love

For Now

I know it's hard to feel close to someone That's so far away. But for now I'll love you through the phone . I'm really gonna miss you but I'll kiss you through the screen . T'il you come home to me...

Oh its been a week now... and i trully cannot express what i really feel. So many questions and so many feelings are rushing through my mind every single minute. 

Should I try ? Should i give up? Is this a true feeling? Do i really feel love? Am I Loved?

It was 7 minutes past new years eve I was on a videocall with my dear friends wishing for the new year to be something amazing , adventurous and most of all worth it! We took a bayleaf the great ancient leafs that were used centuries ago by people to make wishes and attract things to their lives. So here we are 3 people - 3 bayleafs my first friend wrote down happiness the second one selflove . Shit, its my turn now.... i was thinking about so many things that i want but what is the one thing i trully desire . I ask my self? And it came like a lightning it was all about love . SO i wrote down love and made the wish at excactly 00:12 I was going through my phone and this stranger poped up everwhere on my social media....Started talking.. What the hell was really going on? Is this a sighn from the universe ? Is this my wish comming true ? 

I think only time knows..

-3 Months later- 

I write this letter to my self. 

I know you are going through hard times right now. That life hasn't given you what you hoped and hasn't turned out the way you thought it would. I know you are disappointed and sometimes feel like a failure or that it is all your fault. But the truth is: YOU are not a failure nor could you ever be. YOU are strong and brave and honest and YOU will overcome. YOU will persevere and come out on the other side more YOU than you've ever been before.

You do not need anyone else's approval, love, or friendship to be whole.

Together WE are enough. WE will conquer this new future. I've got you and this time I'm not letting go. Ever. This time, I will put you first.

I will respect you and honor you and cherish you.

Love for eternity,

Me

If you're ever feeling down or unworthy, try writing a love letter to yourself. You'll be surprised all the healing that can take place...