To a future love

The Thrill of It All

I don't know how to start this letter, because I'm afraid it might be the end of our good acquaintance, or if I'm lucky, the realization of my dreams, which is for you to like  me as I like  you. I told myself I might as well take the risks because it's the only remedy I know that could unburden this feeling I've been keeping ever since.I want  you. I know you'll find it hard to believe me if I tell you now how much you mean to me. Considering that we barely know eachother . I could hardly understand what I feel for you, knowing how to endure those long sleepless nights just thinking only of you I've never been like this before. I just don't know how to pour out my feelings for you. You seem distant but I wanted to find the perfect words to make you realize how much I need you and like you, but words continue to elude me, what would they be? Something poetic? I'm sure it should be heartfelt and out of the ordinary. I'm afraid it's no use; every time I look at you, the words came out the same... but there is no power to say them outloud I still remember the first night you popped up in my social medias  and when i took the first look  In your picture i knew right there and then something amazing , feelings will develop inside my heart. The night that i snapped you saying hello being a total stranger and not having a  single hope that you would actually reply was the best memorable moments that ever happen to me. (So funny because I was drunk and having a facetime with my best friends and i was singing and wishing for love and I can help but smile and everybody look at me confused in their face.)However that night I felt  cheerless because what if that was just a one time text with no future and no underlying emotion at all... will i ever see you again ?  But I kept my finger crossed hoping there will be a reply. Then the sleepless night changes with happiness when finally i could easily talk and try to reach you and get to know you , even tho you dont seem like wanting to know me and not carying at all but  I said to myself that "whatever happens  I will treasure it, take time for everything, and enjoy every moment that you will spend time for me."Life is a gamble we all know that, we do not know if we will win or lose until we never even bet or try. Telling you all this was really a enormous risk that I am willing to take because it  involves my emotion, whatever outcome of this confession of mine I will accept it with all my heart, because regret is the last thing that I want to feel, I made a move and i will never regret it.I wish that there will be a chance that we could re-meet in person and for me to show you  how much I like you, how much I want to take care of you in my own way, secure and comfort you every time you feel confused or sad. And I wish that you really want to give a  chance to this and actually get to  know me more. Yup I sound like a hopelless romantic , but its the sad truth me being 1000miles away from you not knowing you and caching feelings for you... 

So i lay a dozen roses for the lover that I've lost 

My mind is in a free-fall