𝙋𝙍𝙊𝙈𝙄𝙎𝙀 𝙈𝙀 || 𝘬. 𝘻𝘰𝘭𝘥𝘺𝘤𝘬 ✔

𝟸.𝟶𝟸

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| CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR |
Past

" that's one thing i always
remember about people.
their eyes. "

" just the thought of him
makes my heart pound
ten times faster. "

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Staring out the window, the night sky shined with stars shimmering all over. The scenery had felt all too familiar.

Right now, the boys and I were on a train to our next spot, to take us to the next, then the next, and so on. Eventually leading to our destination.

I sat next to Gon in complete silence, but yet probably thinking of the exact same thing.

Killua.

It hadn't even been long since we've been apart, but now that we're apart, it seems like I had completely taken him for granted. It's like that saying, 'you don't miss them until they're gone.'

It's funny how my goal from the beginning of the Exam has now completely changed. I used to be so invested in finding Hisoka and restoring our bond. But now... I understand that'll never happen.

And so here I am, reliving that moment not too long back when Killua was talking about his life.

"Hey, Killua." They both look over to me while I just looked over at Killua, "Your family, I'm sure they care about you. Even if they don't show it."

When he spoke of his family, I wanted to help him believe they cared for him. I wanted to give him hope for a family that I never had.

But now I take it all back.

Now, I just sat by the window, wondering why I even told him that. It wasn't like I had any good experiences with a family that cared for me.

I sighed and was pulled out of my thoughts when Gon finally broke the silence.

"Tell me everything about your life."

I was taken back from his random statement but ended up giggling from his all too normal antics. That's exactly something Gon would ask.

"That was random, but why do you want to know?" I asked looking over to the boy who looked to me with puppy dog eyes.

"It's just, I know you probably don't wanna talk about it, but I wanna know more about you."

I looked to him, trying to make any sense of the boy. I couldn't though.

I just smiled and looked back out the window. There was no point in lying about it now. Now, I know I can trust him completely.

"I lied to you before about my life. I told you I barely remembered my father, and that Hisoka had run away and then came back to my rescue. And though that's half true, it's definitely not the full story."

- Flashback -
(TW)

"I was born into a family of hatred. My father, who I called The Man, was the most miserable person I've ever met. He had abused my mother and brother long before I was even in the picture, and had never bothered me when I was little... until one night."