his boy - sapnotfound ✔️

i luv him

i luv him - catie turner - doesnt really fit LOL but nice song

august 26, 2015

here i was. stood in front of the boy i loved so dearly.

i was sure he was the love of my life, but then again, long distance sucks.

my head was spinning with thoughts and emotions.

would we lose contact?

would he forget me?

would he move on?

would we ever see each other again?

i shivered. george was crying. he didn't want to move back to england far, far away from me. i would miss him insanely.

i opened my arms and as expected, george flew into them and began to sob.

"i don't want to leave." he said, trying to calm down.

i was crying too. i was so upset that he was leaving. i knew we would see each other again. i knew it.

"hey, hey, hey. i know. it's okay, george. we will talk everyday that we can. i love you, always. but can you promise me something?"

"what is it?" he loosened his grip to look up at me.

"promise me that," i paused and sighed, knowing this was a lot to promise, "you'll come back."

"i promise. do you promise not to forget me?"

his eyes were glazed over with tears. 

"yes, i promise."

"i love you, nick." he held me tightly. 

"i love you more, george."

i began crying harder than ever before. 

this fucking sucks.

"come on, george. the plane is leaving." his mother came up to us and tapped his shoulder gently.

"mother, i really just want to stay here. with nick."

"you can't."

"why not? why did you have to get a job so far away knowing it would hurt me more than anything?" he held my hand and turned to face her.

"i missed london, george. you have to understand-"

"no, mother. i will never understand." he sighed and turned to me, his eyes filling with tears, yet again. "i'll be there in a second."

my heart was breaking more and more each second i looked at him. the more tears, the more my heart tore.

"you've gotta go. i love you, george. text me as soon as you get off your flight, okay?

he nodded. "i'll miss you."

his voice was small and soft.

"i'll miss you too, more than anything. we will get through this." i rubbed circles on his back.

"george!" his mother yelled.

i groaned. "alright. i'll text you everyday."

"okay." he let go. he picked his bag off of the chair we were standing near and began walking away.

"bye, george."

"bye, nick." he waved.

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as i stared through the window of the uber, i cried silently.

god. i miss you so much already. i can't believe you've left. how i'm going to miss seeing your smile in person. how i'm going to miss hearing your laugh without a screen in the way. how i'm going to miss kissing your soft cheeks. how i'm going to miss you getting flustered when i mess with you. how i'm going to miss the way your hair fits so perfectly with your face. how i'm going to miss throwing you in my pool at midnight. how i'm going to miss the way you cover your face to stop the laughter from spilling out. 

how i'm going to miss you.

"thank you so much." i gave ten dollars to the driver and walked up the walkway of my house.

i unlocked the door and stepped in. i began walking upstairs to listen to loud music to drown out the questions from mom in the kitchen.

i closed my door and fell back onto my bed. i sighed and grabbed my phone from my nightstand.

god, this was gonna be rough.

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a/n

thank u for reading sorry its short this is kinda like an interest check or whatever but yea i hope u liked it and i genuinely started tearing up writing this LOL ok n e ways gonna go watch purpled now BYE!!! <3