The Affair

patrick.

this chapter is gonna be kinda the same as ellen's

it has been two weeks since i left the show. i wasn't ready to talk to anyone, and i wasn't sure if she was even ready to talk to me. i know i promised her but i don't know maybe she wants to move on. jillian and i  have planned a trip to cabo mexico, it's our favorite place to vacation and we have a house down there so we can stay as long as we like. i miss ellen a lot but she probably just wants her space, who knows she probably hates me now. i doubt it but it's possible.

me and jill are in cabo relaxing and i haven't been on my phone nearly as much because i just kinda want a break from reality. besides it's nice here. the sun, the water, the weather, everything just so perfect. except i'm here with the wrong person. it would be a lot of fun if ellen were here with me instead.

*two years later*

i've been in a few movies and tv shows which has been a ton of fun and meeting new people and a lot of amazing actresses and actors but nobody compares to ellen, our spark, our connection. it could never be the same with anyone else. i wanted so badly to contact her and talk to her and maybe even go see her but she probably hates me by now. we haven't talked in a few years and i hate myself for not talking to her when i promised her i would. i can't believe i broke my promise to her, she probably hates me forever.

i am at home alone right now so i decide to go on youtube and look up some of her interviews just to see how she doing and what she's been up to.

a few hours later it's like i've watched every single interview she's ever been in, it's late at night now and i look at the clock and i've been watching her on youtube for 4 hours now. only to figure out i miss her so much. i miss her smile, her laugh, her hair- gosh her hair smelled so amazing i decide to go look at her instagram and i see a few pictures of her, she's smiling. she looks so beautiful, i'm falling in love with her all over again. i haven't thought about her this much in what felt like forever

i put my phone down and lay down in the bed and just rest my eyes.

the next morning i woke up from the most incredible amazing dream about ellen and i. is it bad i wish i wouldn't have woken up? i don't know. i sit up only to realize that my pants are wet and the bed is wet. "oh shoot" i said to myself. i had a wet dream about her. as a few weeks pass by i realize i have been having a lot of wet dreams about her, but i wasn't complaining i just wish they were real.

*three years later*

california has been on lockdown for about two weeks now, who know when it'll get back to normal but me and jill have been quarantined together ever since cali was in lockdown. after a few weeks of having wet dreams about ellen i just had to stop doing that to myself so i tried to block her out of my life completely because eventually i would make a mistake and text her and then probably hate myself for it. me and jill haven't been working because production shut down because of the pandemic so we've been pretty bored and trying to keep ourselves occupied enough. she's been cooking and baking a lot which is bad because she's a good cook and i like her food but i don't want to get fat. tonight is my turn to cook so i get up and get dressed and head to the grocery store

there are a few paparazzi people there which is weird, they know where i'm going before i even go there. i put my mask on and get out of my car and head into the store. i only need a few things so i wipe down a basket then start walking around the store. i am going down an isle just wasting my time and i hear a voice i haven heard in a long time

"patrick?"

it was her. i stopped to look at her. she looked more beautiful than i ever remember. her scent has changed but in a good way, i may even like this one better, i could see her golden locks and her green eyes. she looks like she hates me kinda, i can't see her whole face because of the mask. i finally get the courage to say something

"ellen."

A/N
don't hate me too much i'm not gonna move on just yet i'm gonna do a short little chapter of their conversation tomorrow, i just didn't think it should be in this chapter

hope you enjoy this chapter :)

two updates in one day!! haha let me know if you have any ideas for the next chapter!!